Last night I caught sight of myself in the mirror with my real hair pulled back in a pony tail with my many bald spots showing through. And I thought, that's it - it's time, I look hideous. I discussed it with my hubby who played devil's advocate and stressed to me that there was no turning back once I did it so to make sure I was sure. As he put it, I can still throw on a hat and go to the store (with my real hair) or around the house.....but you can't hide bald!

So we started off with the clippers on #3, then took it down to #1 - but after a picky night's sleep, in the morning we shaved it off with a razor. After it was all off, it was shocking to see how far this has progressed since I found my first dime-sized spot 2 months ago. Obviously the prednisone isn't working - doc!

It feels AMAZING! What a relief and feeling of freedom! I feel like I am thumbing my nose at alopecia -- it's not going to beat me. We sat outside all day with the warm breeze blowing on my scalp and the sun shining down on it. It feels so good to not be worried about if my spots are showing.

This was such a huge step in my healing process. I spent the whole week reading through all the blogs and posts on this site and looking at everyone's pictures that they posted and it has helped so much to take this step and know that it was the right thing for me to do. I posted a bunch of pictures under my profile, hopefully they will help others just like everyone else's have helped me in this process.

And I also have to give out thanks to my very special and supportive husband, Dave. He has been such a pillar for me on this journey - he makes me feel loved and beautiful every day. I can be me without reservations.


I can't wait for the day that I can proudly walk out in public with my bald head like so many here have done. That will be my next step, but for now I have to get used to the new me.