I have AU when people ask what this is I simply say my immune system doesn't feel that I need any hair. People often reply "no hair... anywhere..." and I answer "none". This results in a ration of statements like "you are so lucky you don't have to shave." No bad hair days for you, no hair in your moth when the windows open or you go on a boat. No worries about dying grey hair. No hat hair in the winter no sweat head in the summer or when you work out.

Well let me just say this... I miss it all of it. Every day I miss it. I  miss twirling it when I am bored, I miss my little nephew playing with it when he is sleepy. I miss when my husband grabs the back of my hair and kisses me, he rarely touches my head anymore what straight man wants to rub a bald head. I miss the way it feels to have wind in my hair, the way it feels when you hope in the shower and the water just starts to run thru your hair. I miss when the hair band breaks and snaps my fingers. I miss bed head/ morning after hair. Oh and the way my hair looked under water when I swam.

I miss genuine " Hey how are you" now in its play is that "I am not quite sure if you are terminally ill" pity smile. And don't you all miss when you watch scary movies and you could feel the hair on the back of your neck tingle and stand on end.

This is not a confidence issue I know my lack of hair doesn't make me less attractive to people who know and care about me. I have a ball wearing wigs and have many styles. I can also leave the house with just a bandanna. I work night as a nurse and often am bald headed. My coworkers don't even notice and my residents love me as I love them.

I am not looking for any feed back just wanted to get this off my chest and thought you all would understand. As opposed to my face book people who feed me a bunch " we still think your beautiful" love and affection. 

 This is as simply put as I can make it. I MISS MY HAIR