It has been about 9 months since I found my first spot.
It took about a month for my hair to stop falling out and since that time those areas are growing back. :)
I was lucky because the spots my hair fell out were all on the back of my head, underneath the rest of my thick hair. No one could see but me, my hair. I Love God! I have trusted that he would heal me and that this was over, and as far as I could tell it was!
until...
Yesterday I find another spot, about the size of a nickle. but... this time it is on top of my head, and if it gets any bigger I will have to wear a headband to hide it. soo... guess what it is getting bigger! Great! uhhhhhh....
I know it is just hair, and part of me feels like, whatever, just let it all fall out and get it over with, it will be nice not to have to mess with it. The other part of me is saying, just stand on Gods promise that He would heal every sickness, by his stripes we are healed!! God has done so many miracles in my life, keeping my hair on my head is no sweat for him. Then the other part of me is saying. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! WHY WHY WHY!!! NOT AGAIN, NO! NO! NO! NO! and that part wants me to crawl up in a ball so no one can see me!

I see the women on this site, they are all so confidant and beautiful. How did they get there? I want to say that I do not care, to be like, ahhh whatever, and not care either way. I feel nothing and everything all at once. I know it is not a big deal right now, I know no one can tell. I have no clue if it will stay this way, or get worse. I just wish my hair would make up its mind. I wish it would grow back and stay, or just fall out altogether! I cannot take this emotional roller coaster anymore!!!!!!! Thanks for letting me vent. Any advice?