Alot has changed for me in the past little while. When i first started on this site I was dealing with alot of emotions linked to my alopecia. I was debating on whether or not to go talk to a therapist and i finally did. I had a couple of appointments but found that talking to her didnt really help much (to each their own right) but I did it for my mom. I actually found writting in a journal helped alot more then anything, it was almost like taking all of it out of my soul and leaving it on the paper. Since last my hair has started to grow back (still have the odd spots). I am surprised at how thick and curly it is kinda looks funny lol. I hit a really big slump where I didnt know who i was anymore. I did many things i wish i hadn't (but dont regret because i learned from my mistakes) and became someone I didn't like. I finally realized when i looked in the mirror one day that you know what who cares, who cares about any of it, so what i lose my hair periodically in random spots it is not who i am. I was always afraid of what guys would think about it (me being young and a girl it is very hard to explain that to a guy) but i realized if they cant except it then move along shallow minded little boy. Because they have no idea what they are missing, I am bright and bubbly, happy and funny, and full of love and life and have the biggest heart ever, i love to smile and make others smile, love the smell of a fresh spring day and standing in the rain with my tounge out. These are the things that make me, well ME not my alopecia it just took some soul searching and yes some bad decisions but i dug through all the dirt and finally found me. It feels so great to smile again :-)