I contemplated adding this 4 part to my story, but what the heck, I’m not usually one to hold back. I worked as a paraprofessional/secretary for 7 years for an Alternative Education, students 14-20 who had dropped out of school, and been kicked out of the traditional school. The school was like a close family, about 40 students and 4 co-workers. At the end of 2007, the director notified me my position was being eliminated. Having known a Secretary position was going to be put in place, I made her aware that I would love to be able to fill the position. I was familiar with my co-workers and students. All the time there was a hidden motive to a secretary position and I would not even be considered for the position. Anyhow, I was offered a position as a Nurse aid to a little girl who was severely diabetic. I knew nothing about being a nurse, nothing about diabetics and was never offered any training. Not to mention how was I going to be able to go to another building with over 500 young children and 25+ co-workers. I set-up a meeting with the Superintendent and tried to plead my case, but he more/less didn’t understand, or simply didn’t care. I knew in my heart at the time, I was not capable of accepting this position. Kids will be kids, but I wasn't ready to deal with the finger pointing and snickering. I've now been unemployed for 2 years and continually put in applications and resumes' with no success. Up until recently I would cringe at the thought if I actually was called for an interview. How would I be able to face strangers the close and personal, would I wear my wig, or wear my hat. Would they assume I was going through chemo and not bother to give me a chance. I've gotten stronger, and haven't given up, I really want to work and be back out in the "world." I'm still nervous about going on a job interview, but feel I am strong enough to go through with the process. Wish me luck :)