This economy and trying to find a job has me in the dumps! I've had a fair share of interviews, no takers, and although I know I am my worst enemy and that it's all in my head I keep reverting to what I strive to keep at bay normally. POSITIVITY! Of course I can't read minds either but I keep feeling that I'm being rejected for my appearance and not my skills - I'm a jack of all trades, master of none. I've been a welder, tour guide, retail manager, shipper/receiver, inventory control, machine operator, electronics assembler, farm hand............ the list goes on and on and on. Most jobs that allow me to work for them find I'm incredibly useful as they can put me in just about any department (including the office) to help wherever it's needed. So why can't I find a job? I keep thinking it's cause of my bald head BUT this is who I am and I won't be wearing a wig to work so what's the point of wearing it to the interview? I don't want to work for anyone that's going to judge me based on a medical condition however I do need a job and there are so many people out there that seem to be under the impression that sexy people are better employees (which is completely untrue).

I have to keep reminding myself that the amount of people who are unemployed right now are incredibly high and that it's very plausible that someone with an engineering degree could be applying for the same job. Being a single parent makes things difficult as well because I'm restricted to working a day shift or I'll never see my kids and they need a parent considering that their father isn't around for them. It seems that most of the jobs I'm qualified to do are for shifts I can't work or for some strange reason they require a diploma or certificate of some sort. What I don't understand is why anyone would go and get their master's degree for a job that most graduates can only do part time for a minimal salary. The world is a highly specialized place now where a degree is required to pour water for the head honcho and it's driving me crazy. In a world very different but not that long ago you didn't even have to make a resume, you just walked in, spoke to the manager or owner who would interview and maybe even hire you on the spot. Potential employees were trainable and not always expected to walk in knowing everything. There are people older and wiser than me that still have no idea how to use a computer let alone write a resume and print or email it.

Another concerning factor is that many places have allowed young adults to be supervisors, managers and HR representatives. Psychological studies show that today only 31% of men and 46% of women reach adulthood by age 30! "Adulthood" meaning maturity levels and ability to care for one's self and take responsibility for their actions, etc. (all the stuff adults are known to do and take care of - the list is extensive and at time stressful). How scary is that???? It's no wonder I don't get promoted, I'm not kissing some child's butt and trying to gain favoritism, I'm busy doing my job and doing it darn well if I may add. At the last place I worked at I was passed up for a promotion for a higher paying sales position because my early 20-something year old manager decided it best to hire her friend for the job (did I miss something, hiring from within first went out the window?). I was more than qualified for the position but of course excuses were found, all different depending on who you asked too. Yeah, I'm still bitter about that one but it's not something I carry around with me, I'm just venting. Honestly, I feel so much older than I am and starting to sound like my dad when he'd curse those young foolish people. I'm frustrated and feeling a little down due to this lack of working and feeling useful and earning a pay check. I'm going to try and keep my chin up though, it can't rain all the time!!! If you've made it this far, thanks for listening. :)