I've been seeing a psychiatrist for the past few weeks because I felt like I just had too. My anxiety picked up sometime last month, it became a physical thing to me & it's not always about my alopecia (so I think). Lately I've been getting anxious in my dreams, hearing my troubled thoughts as I sleep so when I wake up I'm still anxious and being anxious is all I could think about.

I understand its an internal thing, my subconsious, my stresses and worries, dreams of suicide, betrayal & humility. I understand this because I am the same way when I am awake; only to be muffled my distractions, like putting my hair piece on, using falsies everyday. I hate that. But I hate myself without it. 

But my point of this post is about the last question my therapist asked me my last session. She asked me "What do you want to work on, what do you want to change?"

Over all?

Not thinking about the obvious (I wish I had hair) I said

I just want to wake up and feel okay for once.