Ive been up and down emotionally. My hair is still falling out although it is slowing some its still coming out everyday. I have 3 wigs and I got a few new scarves. I dont leave my house without something on my head usually a wig. Ive been wearing a wig to work for a bout 2 weeks now and Im getting sick of their question and comments about why I have a wig on. I just started dating this guy and he knows that I wear a wig, however he has no idea why. The last time we hung out I went without the wig and wore one of my scarves and he told me I had nice hair I didnt need a wig and I almost started crying. Ive been off work for a week due to lay off and Im dreading going back. Right now I could see myself being a hermit. Ive been very depressed and Ive been having panic attacks more frequently since my hair loss has gotten worse.
Im selling my house in Ohio and Im looking for a job in Orlando where I grew up and I cant wait to move. Im not moving because of the AA Ive been wanting to move for a long while, but I think that maybe this move (whenever it happens) will help me at the very least maybe I wont be so self conscious in a new environment. Im hoping that it will be a change for the better.