Once upon a time I used to be a knock out

I'm contemplating doing what I said I'd never do, shave my head. I'm tired of cleaning hair from all over my house on a daily basis, I almost want to cry when I take a shower, and I cant even look at myself in the mirror anymore. I am very depressed I dont want to leave my house unless i absolutely have to. I have very little hair on the top and two growing patches on the sides of my head.

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Comment by lynne on July 25, 2009 at 6:00pm
hiya, sorry to hear ur feelin so depressed, i must tell u tho, i felt the same wen my hair was fallen out, i lost most of mine within 2wks, but i had lots of strands left but decided to shave it off with the help of my sister, i must say i felt so much better to have shaved it, i felt i look ill and like an old women with the strands then wen i sn my completely bald head i felt so much better, i have never had any regret of doin so, i hope u can decide to do wat ever feels rite for u, if u nd any questions answered dont hesitate to get in touch, hope u feel better sn, take care, xx
Comment by Tallgirl on July 25, 2009 at 10:02pm
I just go for a style and color of wig that is new and different for me, but more professional and sexy than my own hair would ever have been. In-shop, you can try on, and choose your colors, then order a wig of the quality you like. When it comes, the pro stylist can thin and trim bangs, because wig-out-of-a-box isn't how you are supposed to wear it. (The manufacturers put on more hair to give you options for trimming to fit your own particular head.) I also go to cosmetic counters at fancy mall stores for free demos right before important events, or to cheer myself on a day I feel un-knockout-ish. Wild jewelry at yard sales and thrift stores, interesting clothes at thrift stores...ta daaaaa!!!!! New looks=more fun, attention and confidence. For me it is a wig or hat; others may choose headband, scarf or smooth. Do whatever you aren't doing now, because the only way to go sometimes is UP...or just DIFFERENT. You can journal how you feel about various changes, and chart emotions, contacts, appreciative looks, etc. And someday, another change may work for that age and not this one you are currently living. I just looked at $280 monofilaments today, and saw a cute, professional/fun one I may get in auburn for my next birthday. Once I even bought TWO birthday wigs for myself! Completely different styles and lengths! Knockoutness is more than hair, you know. But if you think that hair at least will take away the blues, then WIG IT!
Comment by Dana on July 26, 2009 at 1:25am
Trixie,

You & I are having the exact same feelings right now. Although I can't offer much in the way of advice, I can tell you that you are not alone. Let me know how you proceed. No matter what we decide to do, I know deep down that we are both exceptional girls. :)
Comment by Ashley Nicole on July 27, 2009 at 1:40am
your still a knock out! ;) i just go alopecia last yea at the beggining of my senior year. i wear wigs and i get depressed sometimes 2 but you just got to get out there again :)
Comment by Stephanie on July 27, 2009 at 10:46pm
HI Trixie
I've been in the exact same place you've been. In fact some days I'm right there with you. When I finally shaved my head I did feel some sense of control, but it also took me a while to mourn my hair. I miss having bad hair days! SLowly I am coming to accept this. I will be the first to admit that some days are better than others. Some days I'm fine, some days I cry. Just know that you are beautiful with or without hair!! Good luck!
Comment by Ann Laurie on August 31, 2009 at 7:41am
I'm going through what you are going through right now! I almost have to shave myhead because i have isolated myself from the outside world. I am worried that people will stare at me or make comments! I hate feeling like i can't control my life. I hope you can come to terms with it and feel happy again! just know that you have a lot of people that are here for you and it would help you and us to talk about it!....


Good luck and take care!

Ann
Comment by Suzanne on April 25, 2010 at 11:43pm
I know this is an old post, but it's kind of where I am with things right now. My alopecia has progressed slowly and I only had a few, easy-to-hide spots for the first 2 years or so. It's picked up the pace in the last few months, though, and so much is coming out every time I shower or try to fix my hair. I'm constantly pulling it off of and out of my clothes, finding hairballs in the carpet, and out of my food. Bleh.

I've been wearing hats or scarves pretty much every time I leave the house lately, but there are times when I just don't want to go out at all. This morning, I couldn't find my hat and was starting to freak out, as I was running late. I ended up with a scarf that didn't really match what I was wearing, but whatever. At least I went out.

Not sure when I'll be ready to shave it, but it might be soon. I should probably start checking out wigs, so that I don't totally isolate myself, if I'm not ready to go bald. I *want* to be ok with it, but I know I'm not there yet.

Anyway, like I said in the comment on your picture, I think you're totally rocking the mohawk/bangs thing!

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