It all started in April with a small patch and thinning of hair, after that the doctor said its alopecia areata. I was losing hair, getting more patches and my head well that itches still. Everything seems to be normal as much as the doctor told me. I was suppose to do treatments but sadly certain things are not covered by my insurance and some of the medication has side effects that are affecting me. So I am doing this naturally. I made the decision mid May to let it run its course. Whatever happens happens.

I guess I am taking this better than I thought till today. I pulled my hair back and up but it doesn't cover the spots. I had some one stare at me and look sad, it could of been in all in my mind. However it doesn't stop the thought that maybe every one can see the patches, maybe they feel sorry for me or maybe they are worried its contagious. I don't know but I knew it was time. I cried on the phone with my fiancé when he said that the patches were always visible.

I didn't want people I didn't know to look at me weird, I wanted to still look some what normal. So I chopped it all off today. I let it go. I already had an awesome wig on hand from a friend who told me its normal to want to wear wigs even though I had hair, keyword. So I shaved it all off. I was also a little sad that when I did buzz it all off I noticed that the pile was thinner then a few years ago when I buzzed my head for breast cancer event. It also brought to my realization that there were more patches and areas that were thinner.

I guess my whole point of this blog is to get it off my chest to maybe some people who understand, maybe give me tips or even just listen besides my one friend and fiancé. I am job hunting soon after I am done with my Paralegal associates degree. I am hoping that I can get something with out people wondering what is wrong and such. Anyways I am going to try and keep positive like I have been and keep track of the patches. Any advice is great, anyone who just wants to vent or have someone to listen to is welcomed too. 

Akrose