Hi, My name is Patricia & I am a 30 year old married women with 2 beautiful children aged 2 & 4.
Ok, well this all started out as one tiny little patch that fell out back in 2000. I would say it fell out when my parents separated. Grew back fell out. Thats was the cycle, but I had no concern as it was 20cent piece in size and it was at the back. With long hair it wasnt visible. 5 years later I was getting married & again I discovered another patch appearing to the side over my ear. So come my wedding day I had to wear extensions to discuise and fill my hair. 4 months later I fell pregnant and I was told in pregnancy you don't loose much hair, this is to happen after the child is born. But my hair was thinning, but not with much concern. Patches would grow back with help of cortisone injections and must I say - extremely painful.
2 years later I had my son, this is when it all went down hill for me. I felt I wasn't able to enjoy the pregnancy and my new born like I wanted to experience.
Was having my second child the cause of this dramatic turn?
I had my thyroid completely removed for medical and hereditary purposes. Enlarged, now on meds for the rest of my life. I thought that maybe this might have been the cause, but NO!
Hair would fall out in chunks, I could nt bare seeing my hair on the floor any more, even washing my hair. My long curly waist length hair was disappearing. The patches were at the top of my scalp, so a hat would always be on my head. Then suddenly my worst nightmare, Handfulls and handfuls till one day I couldn't handle seeing it fall out anymore I got my sister to cut it 3 inch long as I wasn't ready to completely part with it. Meanwhile my body hair was thinning, but didn't take notice of this as I was devastated about my hair on my head. I saw a psychologist, tried acupuncture, asian herbs, endless crying. And nothing. None of this helped me. I had to come to terms with this and fight this. As my mum keeps telling me, I am not I'll, I am healthy, just hairless.
Come febuary 2010 in a matter of 2 weeks I lost my eyebrows and eyelashes. I was drawing in my eyebrows as I didn't want to see what I looked like without them and booked asap to get them tattooed, which was the best thing I did. The eyelash loss was devestating for me.
So now, completely hairless. The mirror, my worst enemy. My daughter drawing pictures of me with no hair. My kids never to know there mother with hair. Only the photos on the wall.
I have the bestest friend in the whole world who has been my rock through all of this. You know you do get the support from family and friends, but the support I have received from my BF has meant the complete world to me. She has been my psychologist, kept me strong when I wanted to fall. And continues to do so. Her love & support I will always cherish.
Today....... I wear a long human haired wig which was purchased for me with help by my family, my tattooed eyebrows, the eyeliner I wear to discuise that I have no lashes ( people are shocked when I tell them I have none) I have 2 synthetic wigs I wear with caps on hotter days tied up or in a bun.
3 months ago I started taking these vitamins & 2 months ago discovered white lashes growing, more on the right eye, but it wasn't there before and mascara does the job of making them black :)
I have a lot of white/ blonde fuzz growing on my head, patchy of course and tiny. Only been there 1 month.
And just yesterday at the back of my scalp I have been very itchy and looked closely to see 3 tiny black hairs.
Is it the help of the vitamins or is it the acceptance of change to me, or is it just going to fall out again?
I don't know & will never know, just taking it as it comes and trying soooo hard to stay positive.
Hoping for a miracle :)