Well, a lot has happened since my last blog post...so I thought I would write another one..this is a great way to keep track.

I went to my doctor who arranged for me to have blood tests. I got tested for diabetes, auto immune disorders, protein and iron deficiencies. I also got my thyroid checked plus a few other things. I had convinced myself this was all down to low protein in my body. Turns out I was wrong. All my tests came back normal. I guess I should have been relieved but a part of me was hoping to get an answer from those tests. I asked my doctor where we went from there. After talking to some great people on here, I learned that it seemed the norm to go to a derm and also that oral steroids work for some people. I mentioned these to my doctor and he told me that the derm will prob refuse to see me and the oral steroids probably wont work. I guess I trusted what he said but as time has went on, I am thinking about going to see my own derm. It sucks that my doctor doesn't really seem to care.

Anyway, I had found a few small patches and up until New Years, I was able to cover them up. I wasn't shedding etc so I thought this would get better by itself. Then as soon as the New Year arrived, my hair started falling out in huge lumps. As of right now, I still have a little bit of hair but I think it will all have gone by next week. I have got to the point where I am so scared to wash or brush it. But this is the card I have been dealt I suppose and maybe it's a test. It has definitely made me a better person, thats for sure.

I got my first wig 5 weeks ago and I got a second one on Friday. I don't know how I would cope without them, Not many people know about my alopecia and are completely unaware of my wig. That's how I want it to stay, at least for the timebeing. This has definitely been a struggle and I have my bad days, as I am sure everyone on here does, but the good days outweigh those and I need to continue to be strong and stay positive. I have cried a lot over this but I refuse to let anyone see that, not even family. I want them to see that I am coping with this.

I am dealing with this with a lot of hope and this site is such a great support. To be honest, I don't think I would have come this far without it. Lets hope the rest of this year is a lot better to all of us.