you know the kind of bad dream: you show up to school naked or your teeth crack and tumble out of your mouth or you like realize all of your hair has fallen out and you are bald? Yeah. The last one...So last week I notice a 2 inch bald spot on the back of my head. I don't know when it started or how it got so big with out me noticing but when I ran my fingers through my hair after the gym on Wed they hit a smooth patch... WHAT?! Confirmed by some yoga moves with a compact in the employee bathroom immediately thereafter. First reaction: PISSED. "F%&NG Feria dye! This is what I get for trying to save a buck on my haircolor." Umm... actually no. Or at least not according to the 12 year old HMO Doctor that I had to see first: "no trauma to the scalp. It’s likely just acute onset alopecia"...... "just acute alopecia". REALLY sweetheart??? like, do YOU like your hair? Would you be pissed if you had a 2 inch smooth spot smack in the middle of your lovely blonde bob?? JUST alopecia. Yes, balding. At 32. Awesome. No, I'm not taking it well. The bloodwork indicates no vitamin deficiency, no thyroid condition. I’m totally conflicted because I feel like I should be happy it’s "just alopecia" but I’m not and that’s fucked up too. I mean how vain can I be. So I saw a dermatologist today who confirmed the diagnosis and got my first round of steriod injections to the skull...have scheduled my return appointment in four weeks. fun. all in hopes I’ll be able to coax some fuzz back on "the patch" (yes, it is called " the patch" now... not so affectionately). Am very surprised at how fast some people on this site are talking about loosing all of their hair. I haven't noticed any significant additional loss but now everytime my scalp itches i'm paranoid.

I’m glad I found this outlet to discuss this shtuff. My husband and best friend are the only people I’ve told and they are understanding but I spend most of my time talking to them about it explaining it.

Curious: My mouth is exceptionally dry, I have no appetite and I’m exhausted. Side effects from this afternoons injections? And I'll be dammed if I don't have a little bit of a headache. But I'm thinking it's just as likely that I am so traumatized by the confirmation of the diagnosis that I am imagining all these.