I recently lost my Grandmother who would've turned 90 yrs old this month, when I lost her... I felt I lost myself! She would always tell me everything was gonna be alright :(

Having my Grandmother in my life, I always felt strong...

Now I don't know what I feel????
Tired...
Scared...
So alone...

Tomorrow is a different day...

I wasn't ready for this, AA!
But who is????

Right now; it don't feel like I ever will be :( How can I accept this!!

Leave me alone a little while...
That's what I feel like screaming

LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!

but then... if you knew me...
you'd know better than to leave me alone

My heart hurts... like Gail's story!
In the doctors office, I went through the exact same thing!

"You have to come to terms with this!"
Try and accept what you have...

HOW! HOW! HOW!

I thought I was okay with being bald...
I have so much hope for my hair growing back. My faith in God has never been so strong in my life.

When my Grandmother passed away;
I commented to a family member,
maybe I will get my Gran's beautiful hair...

Dear Lord; Give my Grandmother a warm hug for me tonight. Tell her how much I love her. I miss feeling her warm hands as she would lay them on me... in her own gentle way, she'd Pray for me and tell me everything is gonna be alright, just as long as I believe...


I do believe... I thank you Lord for your blessings on me! For the hair that is growing back :) (even though it is white!)

I love you Granny Emma; missing you ever so much each an everyday that passes!:(

Love your Grand Daughter Ursula