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feeling a split personality kinda thing
hi .. this is my first topic to discuss here ...i also want to lighten my heart with all of you....
i have very small family n frnd cirle ..... i have only my mother as only family member to talk , no sister n brother, n no discussion with father..he just want me to talk only "important things" ... discussion with him .... i have 3,4 four good frnds(no girlfrnd). ...
i saw many alopecians seems to enjoying their lives very well ..... i think i have accepted the condiiton but i developed a kind of social phobia .... when i am outside my home ... like in office ...i m normal ... well not very energetic , but just ok with collegues , i also go out n enjoy sometimes........
when i came back to home .... i feel the same mental stress and deadly depression that i faced when i was struggling to accept "me" for whole life ..... in home i just feel like i want to suicide .. i cant live with alopecia even for a day ..... my mind really stops me to go out and become social and relax ....i cant control myself its just became a daily kind of thing
no psychatrists and councelling for alopecia with professionals till yet because seriously in india society really hates them n everybody thinks psychatrists are only for "psychic" not below that level.....
i really want to ask .... how u guys be happy and social ....
ya 1 more thing ......i m also continuing that same homeopathy that gave me white small hair n still hoping to get them back ........... may be this is disturbing me but i cant loose hope
i have very small family n frnd cirle ..... i have only my mother as only family member to talk , no sister n brother, n no discussion with father..he just want me to talk only "important things" ... discussion with him .... i have 3,4 four good frnds(no girlfrnd). ...
i saw many alopecians seems to enjoying their lives very well ..... i think i have accepted the condiiton but i developed a kind of social phobia .... when i am outside my home ... like in office ...i m normal ... well not very energetic , but just ok with collegues , i also go out n enjoy sometimes........
when i came back to home .... i feel the same mental stress and deadly depression that i faced when i was struggling to accept "me" for whole life ..... in home i just feel like i want to suicide .. i cant live with alopecia even for a day ..... my mind really stops me to go out and become social and relax ....i cant control myself its just became a daily kind of thing
no psychatrists and councelling for alopecia with professionals till yet because seriously in india society really hates them n everybody thinks psychatrists are only for "psychic" not below that level.....
i really want to ask .... how u guys be happy and social ....
ya 1 more thing ......i m also continuing that same homeopathy that gave me white small hair n still hoping to get them back ........... may be this is disturbing me but i cant loose hope
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Permalink Reply by Mari on
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Nrja, I can understand how you are feeling to be sure. It is a hard, and lonely road sometimes. I have family support yes, but never anyone who really knew how I felt. I was very depressed, and honestly get that way sometimes now too. But the only way that I could function and get out in the world is to stop feeling ashamed of myself and that there is something "wrong" with me. We are just unique- and that makes us special :o) Just think of all the pluses of being AU, and all the things that"normal" people have to put up with! It goes hand in hand with all the other differences out there. Color, religion, poor, rich, hair, no hair, heathly, sick......and it goes on. To me being (not Having) AU makes me different and stand out from others, makes me memorable. And that is awesome, I don't blend in with all the others. The only way I learned to accept it is realize that it is not a thing that affects me, but is a part of me. A part of the whole- and we have a pretty darn nice package. Keep your head up girl, we are all here to help!!!!!!
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