I have been learning to cope with the daily shedding, seeing 1/2 of my head patchy bald, wearing a wig. I cycle between decent days and depression, with tears drying much quicker now that it's been nearly a year since my first patch appeared. But today, I feel ANGRY because I feel LIMITED.

I cannot just tuck my wig hair into a pony tail when the office is warm, or behind my ear. I find my sunglasses bump into my wig making neither sit right. I HATE wearing a scarf during my workouts…

...and my first wig. It's a little poofy at the roots at present compared to my natural hair shape. I was told to give it a few days to settle down and then come back to have it thinned if it's still too big. It was REALLY full on top when they first put it on my head-- I looked like an 80's hair band rocker dude, but they thinned it some and used the flat iron, and this is the result. Better than bald patches by a long mile, but I still dearly miss my long hair and just being natural. It…

For years I've had trouble finding cute shoes in narrow widths and now a similar frustration with wigs-- small caps were discontinuted 60 days ago on my top wig pick. And do not even get me started on hats that will not stay on in the wind!! If only I could shift some fat up north.... Grrrr