To continue on my storyline about my search/experience for a new wig. Last time I wrote about how I had learned that I am allergic to the adhesives used in my (thought to be) perfect new lace front wig. Then I wrote about how I had learned that I am hooped and instead of sharing my alopecia with the world of people I work with, I opted for some bright red extensions. I did this to divert attention from the fact that one day I had longer brown hair and then the next I came back with my old hair again, and it worked. I was able & comfortable to answer "just for fun" or "it was a wig and I learned I'm allergic to the adhesive" when asked "why did you change your hair again?". Like it's any of their business. Sheesh people, it's just hair get over it! To tag onto Linda's blog, I do not think anyone has a right to just rudely ask what's going on with your hair or why you're wearing a wig or if you have cancer.

Anyways enough of that, I've been wearing my bright red extensions and managing just fine the past couple of weeks. In hopes of finding a solution to my semi-new wig situation that requires adhesive in order to stay on, I contacted the guy who sold me my very first wig (15 yrs ago). I saw him the other day and he said that although the wig I bought in NY is "not bad" it's not the right fit for me, meaning they didn't measure my head and it's slightly too big (duh I knew that, why didn't I think to ask when I was in NY?)

He said the best he can do is give me some different tapes to try and see if I'm allergic to them. I stuck a few little pieces on my head and am waiting to see if there's a reaction....so far no reaction (that's good news, finally). Now I just need to a) learn how to securely attach the wig to my scalp so that I feel comfortable to go out in public and b) decide if I'm comfortable starting all over again with new hair at work and telling people or not and what to say blah blah blah.

I now have an appt scheduled tomorrow (Saturday) with the guy to get a mold of my head made so that I can order a new full lace custom wig. I will need to see if we can do a payment plan because I cannot afford to just drop a ton of cash right now.

I admit I am a little excited and a little angry and a little leary all at the same time. Excited obviously because new hair is always exciting to me. Angry because I truly thought that I was getting a great wig for a great price when I was in NY and I am seriously disappointed to learn that I didn't get what I thought exactly. And leary just because I'm not sure that I want to start all over again with yet another new wig or hair style etc.

The wig I got in NY is not garbage although I see it and I get annoyed remembering all the pain and frustration I've been through over this darn wig. It's not the wig's fault, but I feel the need to be angry at someone or something. I just don't know if with tape and no glue it will be as secure or whatever to my head. I realize I have to try and see or else I'll never know, but that's what the weekends are for.

It's funny, in all other areas of my life I am so decisive. I know what I want and go out and do whatever I have to to get it. Yet, with regard to my hair....I feel so indecisive lately. I don't think I was like this when I thought there were less options out there. There's actually tons of options, tons of variety, tons of choices. You'd think it would make things easier, but in truth it makes things more difficult somehow.

Thanks for listening.