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Badge of accomplishment = priceless
I wanted to share with my AW family my day today.
Today I went swimming at the leisure center for the first in 10 years !! (ever since my alopecia made me very self conscience) As I was walking into the change rooms I could feel the anxiety rising up and as I was making my way thru the showers to the pool area the anxiety was cresting high. But as I entered the water I started to calm down. The pool was very quiet, mostly seniors, as it was the middle of the afternoon. I let the water wash away the insecurities that I had. I was sporting my new swim cap and my strokes felt familiar. I felt comfortable. But then the unexpected happened. My swim cap started to shift, it was pulling upwards. Ten minutes into my laps I start fidgeting with the cap. At one point the cap pulled upward so much that it came off. I was in the deep in of the pool holding on to the sides freaking out. Seriously freaking out. At one point I tried to hold myself underwater while I tried desperately to put the cap back on. I held on to the side of the pool resting after I got the cap back on, on the brink of tears.
After awhile tho I found some inner strength and continued my swim. I stayed in the pool for another 30 minutes determined not to let my fear conquer me. After wards I went into the hottub/whirlpool where I had a delightful conversation with a senior gentleman. (still wearing my swim cap LOL) But I felt strong.
day pass = $8.50
swim cap = $11.00
badge of accomplishment = priceless
Today I went swimming at the leisure center for the first in 10 years !! (ever since my alopecia made me very self conscience) As I was walking into the change rooms I could feel the anxiety rising up and as I was making my way thru the showers to the pool area the anxiety was cresting high. But as I entered the water I started to calm down. The pool was very quiet, mostly seniors, as it was the middle of the afternoon. I let the water wash away the insecurities that I had. I was sporting my new swim cap and my strokes felt familiar. I felt comfortable. But then the unexpected happened. My swim cap started to shift, it was pulling upwards. Ten minutes into my laps I start fidgeting with the cap. At one point the cap pulled upward so much that it came off. I was in the deep in of the pool holding on to the sides freaking out. Seriously freaking out. At one point I tried to hold myself underwater while I tried desperately to put the cap back on. I held on to the side of the pool resting after I got the cap back on, on the brink of tears.
After awhile tho I found some inner strength and continued my swim. I stayed in the pool for another 30 minutes determined not to let my fear conquer me. After wards I went into the hottub/whirlpool where I had a delightful conversation with a senior gentleman. (still wearing my swim cap LOL) But I felt strong.
day pass = $8.50
swim cap = $11.00
badge of accomplishment = priceless
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Comment by Mary on November 10, 2010 at 11:17pm
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Good for you. I go swimming with nothing on my bald head, and it feels great. I actually felt more selfconscious when I had bald patches than I do bald. I hope you continue to feel strong...in the swim cap or without. It's all about small steps, and this was a big one for you!
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Comment by Angie P on November 11, 2010 at 12:16am
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{{{{Terri}}}} w00t! Cherish this feeling!
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Comment by Diana Carter on November 11, 2010 at 12:41am
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Way to go!!! Proud of you..that is an awesome accomplishment!
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Comment by Tallgirl on November 11, 2010 at 12:53am
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Brava!
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Comment by Cheryl, Co-founder on November 11, 2010 at 12:13pm
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Terri, I found that the most important thing for me, was to not give up the things I love or the things I would have done naturally before my alopecia. So I truly applaud your victory in staying and continuing your swim. Us alopecian have to master the craft of creativity and find new ways to do all the things we did before. Good for you.
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Comment by Lisa Santer on November 11, 2010 at 1:37pm
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Woohoo! Holding on to who you are and what you want, while that symbol tries to float away, is indeed an accomplishment. Kind of cool to imagine a sash of our badges of accomplishment (I was a serious Girl Scout).
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Comment by Bald and Fabulous AKA Terri on November 11, 2010 at 3:25pm
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thanks everyone.....I knew my AW family would totally get the momentous occasional that this was.
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Comment by Tuesday on November 11, 2010 at 8:21pm
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Oh wow - good for you. Your inner strength is awesome! :) You've inspired me to try the pool too. My son (pictured in my profile photo) is having such issues learning to swim and I've been too worried about wearing a darn swimming cap! Thank yoU!
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Comment by Garden Girl on November 12, 2010 at 12:09am
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KUDOS!!!! I can totally relate to the wave of anxiety you felt. I experienced the same thing the first time I went to the gym....we conquer our world in small steps. Keep walking.
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Thank you everyone for your kind comments and encouragement.
I have now gone to the pool 3 times and today was the first time where I took off the swim cap. The darn thing keeps shifting and the pool was nearly empty. What a delightful feeling on the head. And sitting in the steam room after my workout was terrific on the scalp. I still plan on keeping the swim cap for the more busier days at the pool but its a step in the right direction.
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