As I approach my one month anniversary of shaving my head (which is the 3rd of the month), I find myself asking a question. Will I allow myself to let my hair grow back in? I use a razor every other day or second day, and Im liking the feel and look of my bald head. I have spent so many months and years in hiding. Hiding the fact that I have alopecia, that Im tired of hiding. I read so many blogs from you wonderful people about the new "fuzz" growing back in and I feel your joy along with you. Maybe its the pain that so fresh, kinda like a broken heart from a love gone wrong. But could I let my hair grow back in, feel the joy of having hair again, then watch as it falls out again. Which with alopecia is a fact that it could very well happen. I would like to know how many others thought this way?.... is this just another step in the journey?
On the flip side tho, I am feeling fabulous still. Slowly Im making steps of a public appearance with my bald look. I find it very liberating walking or driving around with nothing between my head and the sun. I went for a delightful ride on my horse without my ball cap on. Although I did put it back on when I entered the barn full of people walking about. But I do find myself getting more comfortable when there is only one or two people around. My friends tell me that I look so much more happier...free-er. Shaving was definitely the right choice for me. It has allowed me to stop stressing about what is going on, on top. I have come to think of anything that I do, with dressing my head (wigs, scarfs or hats) as an accessory to my day. Like choosing a pair of earrings. LOL Im even looking at getting a Katy Perry blue or pink wig. Having fun with what changes I can do.
I would like to thank everyone here and this site. For if it wasnt for you sharing your stories and offering your support, making this journey, that we all take, would be that much more harder.
Thank you