I want to start by saying that I dont regret shaving my head. I do believe it was necessary as part of my healing. But today I find myself wavering in my self-image. Wondering if I can ever let myself truly be. I spend so many years hiding and not letting people close. Especially men. I know that there is always going to be good days and bad for everyone not just for us that live with alopecia. And I know that our "battle" sometimes makes it that much more tougher. Im not looking for sympathy just wanted to get it off my chest so to speak. I guess want I really need today is to have someone embrace my head and tell me it doesnt matter that its bald. I just dont know how to ask those near me. How does someone ask without sounding needy. LOL.
This is all probably part of the healing process and the next step into acceptance of myself. Learning to love myself without hiding anymore. I know the alopecia is something that will never go away and I think I have come to acceptance of that. This new image of myself I guess is taking a bit of getting use to. But at least I can smile when I look in the mirror.
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