I am having a wonderful Halloween weekend here at college. I was able to do so many fun things with my hair! :) I have to admit, I am extremely nervous for my doctor's appointment on Friday. I have to decide whether or not I want to continue prednisone or if I want to quit again. They want to do shots in my head but last time those were very painful and only helped on the small spots, not on the large one on the side of my head. I guess you could say it's decision time but really there doesn't seem to be any choices anymore. I think I might as well stop with everything like I did a few years ago because it really isn't worth it to me anymore. Why put my body through this when I know that the result I desire will not happen? Yes, there are faith and 'miracles' but there are also facts and reality. I am accepting when it comes to being bald, even though having hair would be nice. But things could always be nicer just as they could always be worse! I am just prepared for it to fall out now. I am ready. I am done waiting and post-poning. I just want it gone at this point. You know what I mean? If you're gonna fall out, fall out. Stop making me wait, just do it already because I am not afraid. I am ready. I have gone through the whole acceptance process. I have gone through the explanation to my friends. I am ready to get this over with once and for all. But who knows, maybe by Friday I will feel differently.

Wish me luck! :)