Hello everyone, I thought I would post a new blog since I got a couple of emails asking me if everything was ok with me since I haven't posted or commented lately.
I am happy to say that everything is perfectly ok with me. I still have a bald head and I am still having fun with it! The thing that has kept me from posting is my Fibromyalgia. With this disease I get what is referred to as "Fibro Fog"... this means that it's hard for me to concentrate and finish a project, even as small as posting a blog. At times I avoid phone calls from friends and don't leave the house because I don't feel like I can interact with people normally. I am afraid that someone might think I am stupid or something. I don't know. There are a lot of feelings that come along with Flibromyalgia. Having Alopecia is the easy part of being sick.
With Fibromyalgia I have very high levels of anxiety and panic attacks that my doctor is treating with Adivan. Sometimes my whole body will hurt so bad that I can't get out of bed. Or I will be so tired that when I do get up I am counting the hours til nap time, then counting again until bed time. There are a whole range of feelings... very high ups and very low downs. Depression is a big part of this disease also.
But, anyway... I deal with each symptom as it comes. When they come in groups all at once, this is when I have to take a break from life.
Ok, so just an update on my trip to Mexico... for those of you who have been following me. I have everything ready to go. Baby is up to date on his shots. I got my pass ports. I have new S.S. cards I was waiting for. I have everything packed and ready to walk out the door. The only thing stopping me is that it is really hard to come up with the $300 that I need for the bus ticket. (yes I decided that I am going to take the greyhound all the way thru to Mexico) I didn't want to have to worry about landing in Houston and not being able to find the expreso bus co.
It is really hard to come up with this money. Since my husband is in Mexico, it is really expensive for him to send me any money. The international exchange rate from Mexico to the US is 13.30 pesos to $1 USD! Very expensive. So, yea, I have no idea when I am leaving. I thought that by the time I had everything straighten out that I would have the money to leave, but no. He has borrowed money down there to send to me just to take care of me and the baby in the more than 5 months that he has been gone. So now he must pay back all that money before he can borrow more to send me for my trip. I am so scared that I am not going to get to go down. You wouldn't think that $300 USD would be that hard to come by, but this economy is going to shit in the US.
My son and I have not seen him in nearly 6 months and it is very stressful and I am very emotional. I miss him so much that I can't function in the day and I can't sleep at night. He is the first thing that I think of when I wake up in the morning and the last thing that I cry myself to sleep about every night. This is a lot for me to deal with. Expecially being sick like I am. I am have already asked friends and family to let me borrow the money and that I will send it back to them from Mexico, but no one can help.
I just wish that God would send me an angel to help me on this trip. To help me come up with the money and to watch over me until I am safely in my husband's arms.
I will continue to pray...