Hey guys!
Today is one of those tough days when my confidence and acceptance of my hair loss is slipping. I'm not burst-into-tears-so-unhappy miserable or anything, but I'm more like "eh." I'm thinking my head shave will be taking place sooner rather than later. When I comb my hair after my shower I keep losing clumps. There are only so many months I can keep losing clumps before my hair is too thin to be pretty! So I'm a little shaken by that. I'm thinking it'll be an experience that's both scary and exciting. I just don't know what to expect from my family, my friends, and guys. I'm not sure what type of wig to get (until I can afford the Freedom wig), how to keep it adhered to my head, and where to buy one that doesn't look incredibly fake. I'm also not sure when I should tell my future boyfriends or dates that I have alopecia. Part of me would want to ditch the wigs altogether when I go out with my friends, but the other part would want to wear the wig because I think I'd look better. I guess it's all a matter of taste. It's just made even harder when I have a million people telling me not to shave my head or be bald, even though some of them know my condition. Arg! They don't get how seeing my hair falling out strand by strand can put a damper on my spirit.

Last night, I put on my inexpensive platinum blonde wig with a hat (so it didn't look so wiggy) just to play around with my look and I felt like the upbeat, fun, high-spirited me that's been hiding for over a year now. When I have the wig on I feel like I'm more myself than when I have my own hair on display, oddly enough. I think it's a sign that I should make the switch, but it's a scary (and big!) decision to make. My hair is still cosmetically acceptable, but I'm pretty tired of dealing with my mother's questions about my hair loss, and with combing out clumps every night.

One of the biggest thoughts in my mind with this hair loss thing is that I'm not going to be as hot or pretty without my natural hair. Whether I'm bald or in a wig, I'm afraid I won't be as attractive as other people used to think I was when I had a full head of hair. What if no guys like me? What if my friends are weird around me? I want to be with a man who loves me, bald and all (but isn't a fetishist), and would kiss my scalp rather than shove a wig in my face. A man who wouldn't toss me aside for a woman with waist-length hair. Do men like that exist?

So basically what I'm asking is for all of you who are bald or have been bald to tell me your experiences being bald. How has it been with guys? Friends? Dates? Looks? How have people reacted to your baldness? Have you had any trouble attracting guys? And any advice you could give me on good quality, natural-look wigs would be great too!

Thanks!
Alexandra