wandering thoughts and a lil cry

every so often i have a cry
i just had a cry after thoughts of treatments came into my head
my last treatment was acupunture about 3 years ago. it didnt work
but i've had some body hair grow about 8 months ago. it hasnt fallen out, but it hasnt grown further.
i still consider myself to have AU
anywho
i was crying because i was reading the side effects of sulfasalazine which can be harsh.
i remember i've read articles about other even harsher drugs some take to regain their hair. i can say they are wrong in their choices as each person owns and controls their body and hopefully makes educated decisions. i am going to continue reading about peoples journeys with treatments in the hopes their could be a good one, that might work for me.
at this point in my life i dont want to commit to any treatments. we are trying for a baby and thats what really important to me at the moment.

but it makes me cry too. wondering what i would do to have hair. what would my family want.
as i write this i cry thinking my husband has never run his hands through my hair and i havent had hair since igh school. it hurts

to think how nice it would be to not have to wear a wig, or to think about how i'm going to approach the hair subject with people, to not feel awkward when people talk about hair, hairdressers or baldness.

i partly cant imagine being any other way than i am, and yet am reminded when looking at my twin sister what i could have been like, beautiful with auburn natural hair.

and i tell myself to snap out of it, think of all i have and all i have yet to experience. making me the person i am.

stay strong i tell myself.

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Comment by Tallgirl on March 7, 2009 at 12:38pm
Sometimes the hormones from childbirth make hair grow...that happened to many on this site. Keep the drugs out of your system while trying for a baby or nursing, to keep the child healthy, because they say even starting three months before you MIGHT conceive you shouldn't have alcohol or drugs.
Comment by JeffreySF on March 7, 2009 at 7:38pm
I hope you are feeling better Allison.
Nice post Susan.
Gawd alopecians are so darn nice.

Jeffrey
Comment by Alison on March 8, 2009 at 1:03am
susan you are a fantastic person, you lift my heart with your beautiful words!
thanks so much for your comments, it all stays with me.
I'll have my babies then reassess, i'm so impatient sometimes!

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