i am having a hard day. not because of alopecia, couldnt care less right now. its cos i keep thinking i am pregnant. i feel fat, bloated like my period is coming, it doesnt, my boobs start to hurt ALOT and then i take a test cos i think maybe just maybe i might be then no i am not.

and i am not again. i'm going to the doctor on friday, but i just need to get it out. i am sooooo sad at looking at the lil stick and nothing happening. and crying.. and that just makes me think really? and… Continue

i'm in this spot where i think i'm not worried about alopecia and lupus or even getting pregnant, i have work which is going well, our finances are better, renovating a bit. its all happening.

a few niggling feelings like doctors appointments i have to make and things still to do.



yesterday i looked in the mirror and saw a spot on my face that looks like its lost pigmentation... i wonder if thats because of lupus. and i have to go see a fertility specialist. but the doctor… Continue