Not only did I post my pic on my facebook page last night but I went to work bald today!!!!!!! I went out to lunch with co-workers and even renewed my drivers license all without hair. I felt so good about myself today.

Today on FB I received a message from a friend who has terminal cancer and said "it's hard to be without hair" and she doesn't see how I handled it all this time. She is the most amazing person. I remember when she was diagnosed and was worried about losing her hair, I told her not to worry I would come to work bald with her. There is nothing the doctors can do for her now but she is still here and living life. And you know what, that's what we should all be doing as well.

I'm not a bad person but I feel guilty. I have a very good friend that received a promotion and I'm jealous. I have been in the government agency for 25 years she has been there 5 years. I have been her mentor for the entire 5 year period and I feel just a bit jealous that she got a promotion to a job that I have wanted for years. I feel like such a terrible person because I am both proud and jealous. She is a wonderful girl and I wanted her to get a promotion and I'm completly shocked that I… Continue

I thought I was moving ahead by wearing the scaves the past couple of weeks, but then when I went out today I felt totally different. I went to brunch with my husband today and realized I was the only woman in the restaurant without hair. I felt so cheated and unhappy. This is a set back and I don't know how to get past it. I want to cry but I know that's not going to help. Why did this thing happen to us?

So I wore a scarf to work today instead of my wig. I was nervous going in to work but everyone was excited to see my new look. I don't know if I will do it again tomorrow but today was great. I even went shopping with a friend and out to dinner. One giant step for this woman!!!!!!!!

The last time I posted anything on here was almost a year ago. Almost a year later i'm still afraid to go out without my wig on. I purchased a couple of turbans and I did wear one to dinner last weekend but I was totally self conscious and nervous the entire time. Why is this so hard for me? I look at all the beautiful carefree pictures of other members and can't help thinking "what is wrong with me". I think if I could go to work for a week with a hat or scarve and no wig I can eventually get… Continue

Now that my deadline is fast approaching I'm nervous and don't think I can go out without my wig. If I can't go out on Sunday I am going to feel like a big failure. Awwww what do I do.

The picture on my page is the first time anyone other than my husband and daughter has seen me without a wig. I am slowly working toward going out one day without my wig. I think I look just fine without hair and my husband loves the way I look. I am just afraid of how people will react and weather or not I will be able to handle it. My goal is to go without my wig by July 19th. I felt very good posting my picture it was quite liberating.