Hey guys! I hope all is well with you guys. As you may have noticed my life got a bit crazy and busy. I haven't been on here in over a year so here is a little bit about what's been going on in my life. My divorce is almost final so that makes me happy and sad all at the same time. Marrying some one to me ment spending the rest of my life with them but when the person I was with couldn't handle my disease and abused me because he wanted me to feel like a piece of trash, took me a long time…

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Do you guys ever feel heart broken are alone in this world are maybe its even lonely because no one acutally gets what we are going through.. Iv been told Im too emotional when it comes to things because I care too much but really is that so bad? I was happy for a while I had almost all my hair back and now that all this stress is in my life every time I take a shower I have hand fulls of hair and I just cry and cry. I go out into public with a smile on my face and just pretend everything is…

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So as you most can already tell last year was not very good for me. I feel like I've lost everything but to be honest I just figured out what was good for me and what wasn't. I'm going through a divorce my husband was very abusive and always told me being bald was my fault and I started to believe him. I started putting my self down and became very depressed because his last words to me were "you are bald and ugly and no one will ever want you in there life" Why was I so stupid to believe…

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I am so proud of myself!!! I went out for the first time bald today!!! it wasnt that bad. I am at the beach with all of my family so I figured it would be a perfect time to do it!!! I looked at my husband and brother and said lets go for a walk. They were like ok and I said this time Im going just like I am!!! I was scared yes but it was so worth it!!! only one person was really mean but I didnt let that bring me down!!! I had my two brothers and hubby walking next to me to protect me so I… Continue

this morning i woke up and i wasnt feeling very well, ugh....i looked in the mirror like i do every morning but i noticed something different.....a chunk of my eyelashes were missing....ugh....i called my husband into the room and told him to look, he told me that they were still there and they were just clumped together.....but i know he was saying it just to cheer me up and try and keep me strong about finding it out......ugh.........but i kept telling him they weren't there and now i'm… Continue

ugh... On august 11 my life is going to change!!!! I have one person in my life who keeps me completely sane and now he going to leave for deployment!!! If life isn't hard enough dealing with au and now I have to deal with this...Sometimes I just think life isn't that fair to me!!! I don't know what to do I feel like my heart is breaking. He is the one at nights when I'm upset are sick holds me and says everything will be ok!!! Now that he is about to leave for Afghanistan, I'm scared, I'm… Continue

Today wasnt a good day at all!!! I went to a military ball last night and all the girls were looking at me weird!!! so today I was all down because I just dont feel pretty. Ugh I just wish It would go away . I wont long beautiful hair and not have to deal with this!!! I guess today was just not a good au day for me.

I am haveing a hard time dealing with the fact that I dont have any hair. I graudated high school last year and yea.... High school was really hard. I have had alopecia since I was in the 2nd grade but it never really bothered me being bald until I hit high school. People were really mean to me and I didnt understand why cause it wasnt my fault. People would walk past me and say stay away from the girl with the disease and I would just go home and cry everyday!!! I had to wear hats to school… Continue