Yesterday was my first day with a wig, it was extremly uncomfortable. A really pretty front lace synthetic shoulder length dark brown. I guy at work said "someone whent to the hairdresser, Nice!". I should mention that last week I had a really short light brown haircut. So they don't seem to care or notice.

However pretty I looked I felt horrible, uncomfortable and just wanted to flush the wig down the toilet. But i couldn't because underneath was my horrible patchy unflattering haircut. I felt imprisoned by my hair. I coudn't have my friends over unless I covered my head. I didn't feel comfortable with my live-in partner (? dunno what you guys call it in english but me and my boyfriend live together). So he, as the wonderful guy he is, helped me with the clipper and then with the shave. He has more experience with that than I do, I might have been hairy before but not that hairy.

It felt weird not having hair, feeling the cold on my head, and the stubble. But when I woke up this morning and put my eyebrows on i felt good, in control like myself! A feeling I have missed for the past months.

Now I can choose what to wear on my head or if to wear anything. I don't feel forced. This is nice.