One shower and Poof! There went all the rest of my hair! Omg it was scary how much just came out at once! It has been a slow process up until now! This was frightening and a tad sickening. A year of AA and you get used to a lot of hair coming out all the time, but this was....disgusting. =/
I officially can't wear the wig I just spent so much money on because it clips to hair...now there is not enough to clip to...Anyone on here who still has hair want to buy a wig? lol
Fml
first wig bad planning mark # 24 lol
I had such hope that my hair was done falling out for the most part and was going to come back....Woops was I wrong!

I think stress does have an affect on all this more than we think.
I have been a complete mental disaster over the information that my friend who has been in a coma for 3 months is not recovering and only has a few more days to live. That was the hardest goodbye of my life. I am dreading that call every second telling me he is gone.
I can't find a job, bills are piling up, The pets need food, my parents are on my back constantly about getting happy again and moving on with my life, but now I can't even hide in a wig. I promise them, I would love to be happy again, but its not as simple as snapping my fingers. I Soooo wish I had that power! =D They always ask kids what type of super power would they want...Id still choose the power to be able fly though =p
I have always wanted to be able to fly. It seems so freeing. No boundaries.
Bald flight is a good thing to, more aerodynamic HA! ...made me chuckle lol
I was not a huge christian believer because it was shoved down my throat very strictly as a child and i was quite the rebellious one, but I always, always had my own beliefs and always believed in a god and angels, and hope and faith and all that, just in my own ways more or less...But shit! The whole life is a test and God has a reason for everything and a plan to give you the strength needed to get through life's challenges to teach you something or what ever it is....Can I be done with my lesson for a while!!!!
I know I will get through all of this and time heals all wounds, but OMG! I am seriously done with life crashing.
God please give me a break! I can't seem to get my feet under me long enough to take a full breath here recently.
You can go back to you life lessons in a bit, but please let me rest for a little while!
To handle all my anger and sadness recently, I have picked up running (figured it was a much healthier option than eating everything in site lol) ....well to find out I have something called ERI or exercise-induced rhinitis. Exercise actually makes my nose run like crazy and it becomes difficult to breath properly. LOL ReAlLy! o_O
I regrettably hate to admit this out loud, but I think I need to be medicated.
Are there any stress/ anxiety meds that you can take and function daily. I know Xanax just puts me to sleep. =/
Time to call the Dr. again and hope he is nice with the prices.

If you could have one super power what would you choose? =)
<3

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Comment by Vicki H on March 27, 2011 at 5:31am
Hi Lindsay, my heart aches reading your blog. Can you add some double sided tape to your wig so as you can still wear it? Hold tight to hope and not despair, I'm sure there will be a turning point for you soon. Vic x
Comment by Lindsay on March 27, 2011 at 5:37am
please keep that heart happy. No need for aches =)
I'll figure things out. Just not at any quick speed lol
Comment by Lindsay on March 27, 2011 at 5:46am
I am going to try the tape. I don't know much about it though.
Anyone know If I will have to add a part to the wig to make it stick to or will it stick to anything?
Comment by Vicki H on March 27, 2011 at 6:37am
I'd ring the place you purchased the wig to see if they can offer advice on how to affix with the tape. I'm sure they'll have had previous experience here. Good luck hon.
Comment by Lindsay on March 27, 2011 at 6:50pm
HAhaha Cosmic love right back at ya!!!! =D
mid 40's can't be that bad! you are only as old as you let yourself feel. Go g- karting! always bring the kid out in me =p
Comment by ken totman on March 27, 2011 at 10:39pm
Hi Lindsay! Sorry to read about your losses. My heart goes out to you. The second time I lost my hair it was like that. It fell out in like a week. I had to pull handfulls of hair off the drain so the tub would drain. But that's probably not what you want to hear.
Would it help at all if someone told you you're beautiful? cuz you are.
As far as super powers go...yeah, I'd like to be able to fly, too, but I also think it woul be cool to breathe under water and swim super fast - like Aquaman. And - being in my mid 40's - I also have to agree with Squonk's wish. Or maybe being able to snap one's fingers and be happy. I've wished for that one a million times too. Perhaps it won't work on me but it will on you. Let's try it. There, I just snapped my fingers and wished for you to be happy. Did it work? Hope so.
Comment by Michelle on March 28, 2011 at 9:31am
A friend of mine had this quote on facebook the other day...."Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow." Mary Anne Radmacher.
Comment by Mallory Crowner on March 28, 2011 at 10:38am
I'm sorry you're going through so many things at one time. It seems like life as we know it, tends to, shoot...what's the saying? OH...when it rains, it pours. Guess it doesn't make much sense to use it in the sentence I was trying to use it in. Anyway...keep your chin up and your humor on your side. I think we all can get through anything, so long as we have our own mental support and that of those we love around us. :o) I can relate to you in all of those ways. Love the quote too. OH...and my super power, I struggle between wanting to fly and being invisible. I think if I were to become invisible though, I'd be in a permanent state of depression. I'll go with flying today! ;o)
Comment by Bald and Fabulous AKA Terri on March 28, 2011 at 11:36am
Hi Lindsey, Im so sorry to hear that things have been so rough for you and my deepest condolences to you losses. ((HUGS)) Please keep faith, faith in your strength and your humour. There was a time that I too could not see past tomorrow and spent all day crying. (My mother was ready to call the for the white coats) Everything seemed to be happening at once. But with the support of true friends and family it slowly got better. And certainly finding AW helped a great amount.
Sending hugs and positive energy your way. :-)
Comment by Lindsay on April 2, 2011 at 6:58pm
Lol you guys crack me up. Invisible shenanigans!
Seeing the future would be a good one!

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