The support on this site has been amazing. I've starting taking baby steps. A couple days ago I told my best friend about my alopecia and how it has made me feel. I even took my wig off so he could what my hair actually looks like. As of right now I'm not completely bald I had to stop shaving because my scalp was so irritated. He was so supportive and understanding. We talked until 2a.m., he suggested since it was so late and no one would see me that I drive home without my wig on. I did and it felt really good to actually feel the breeze on my scalp while I was driving. It was one of the best experiences I have had in a long time.

I also looked into finding a support group here in Omaha. I spoke to a woman who has a daughter with alopecia around my age. We talked for over an hour.

I know I have a long way to go, but I feel so much better and know I'm making progress. Thank you for all of the kind words and support. When I posted Being Honest I was crying and the tears felt hot streaming down my cheeks. It was overwhelming, because I do not cry. I had not cried in years. I know it sounds strange, but when I was being made fun of(alopecia) and I started to cry the people who were making fun of me laughed harder especially my relatives. I decided when I was 9 years old that I would never cry again no matter how painful a situation was. Therefore being vulnerable and emotional are difficult tasks for me. My sister told me I have no feelings and do not truly care about anyone, which is absolutely not true. She and I are not very close which is another story.

For right now I'm just going to take it one step at a time.