friday night i found my second patch. this one on the right side (stage right) of my head. smaller than the first, about the size of quarter, as opposed to being lime size like patch 1. i suppose i'll have to give them proper names now that there is more than one...so i cried a bit then got incredibly moody. then picked a fight with the husband. kicked the cat (just kidding... my cats are enormous, i would injure myself kicking them). then i got wasted with my family. good times. not the most productive of coping mechanisms but it was a good punctuation to the day. you see i have decided on a process for myself in dealing with this crap. i will give myself one day and deal with it then i will not let my self sulk on it anymore. one day then put it away. so far both patch discoveries have resulted in a binge drink. which is bad. very bad. so i'll have to stop that. for the future i am considering far more productive options like scheduling an emergency massage or a fancy schmancy yoga class...something to break the momentum and to help me put it away. stop the worrying. stop the stress.

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Comment by eva on June 2, 2009 at 12:07am
i agree. at first i was kind of freaked out (in denial) after i signed up and then didn't log back on here forever. but then after one of my melt downs last night, i was like, what the hell - i'll check it out some more. and the more i read on peoples pages, the more i'm glad i gave it another shot. you're right, most people are so positive and it reminds me that this aint shit! i almost feel like everyone should go through this, whether they just get it once and then have regrowth or whatever - i just feel like i've grown a lot from it and realized a lot. it should be one of those things that when someone's getting a little too self centered or vain - oh, there's alopecia! just to snap them back to reality... ok no, that's mean - i shouldn't wish this on anyone....
Comment by Jodi on June 1, 2009 at 7:24pm
kind of, if you let other people's anxiety make you crazy or let it feed any self-pity you re wallowing in. i tend to find alot of solace in community though so this site has been very helpful for me. when i get enough of it i just log out and i like that. but i think you are right, it can seriously make it worse if it in any way feeds your madness (anxiety etc) as that is what triggers this biz.

i love reading about people who have had some form of this forever and are still living like rockstars. makes me feel like part of an elite society. there are lots of those on here. love it.
Comment by eva on June 1, 2009 at 7:01pm
yes, agree - it is nice to have others to relate to... but part of me can't help but wonder if all this alopecia talk might not just make the shit worse!?.... you smell what i'm steppin' in...?
Comment by Jodi on June 1, 2009 at 6:53pm
My Secret Hair Enhancer Spray. I use the "Dark Brown" version.

http://www.drugstore.com/templates/brand/default.asp?brand=59074&trx=29985&trxp1=59074&trxp2=3

I order it from Drugstore.com and apply it when I know I'm going to be going to yoga, the beach, amusement parks etc to keep myself from feeling self conscious about bald spot exposure.

Thank you for finding me funny.. If I didn't try to make this funny for myself I think it'd likely make me crazy. Such a bizzare condition...as you know. Nice to be in this with others who understand.
:)
Comment by eva on June 1, 2009 at 5:45pm
you are hilarious!

what's this head spray stuff? sounds like it might be good...
Comment by Tenille Gee on April 20, 2009 at 9:42pm
I am actually in the midst of planning my binge drinking night. I work at McDonalds as a manager as the hours work while I am at home with my kids and I have arranged it so that I can do my head shaving as a fund raiser on McHappy day where we raise money for Ronald McDonald House Charities and afterwards I have a bunch of friends coming out to my house to drink my face off and enjoy the fact that I am bald, that way when I am crying my eyes out I can blame it on the booze. Whatever works for you, if you are able to limit it to one day I say "BRAVO!!!" most of us can't do that. Well done.
Comment by Bel on April 18, 2009 at 9:19pm
Hi there, that's sounds very simliar to what is happening to me at the moment. I first found a large patch at the back right hand side, freaked out, went into total silence didnt know what to do. THat was about 2 months ago now and well, it now has a couple of friends and well lets just say a few brain cells were killed in the finding of those patches, lol
Dont be too hard on yourself, I love your attitude towards it all.
Comment by Paula on April 16, 2009 at 3:08pm
hey, one option for less expensive massages is to go to a massage therapy school and let the students work on you. it's considerably cheaper. also, some health insurers will pay for massage therapy. i don't think they'd cover alopecia per se, but certainly you must have lower back or neck pain, right? ;)
Comment by Christie on April 16, 2009 at 2:02pm
It just so happens I'm headed out for a girls weekend...so I will definatley do a shot in celebration...and another for everyone who is coping, and another for....it will be a good weekend i think...ha ha
Comment by Jodi on April 16, 2009 at 1:52pm
I do yoga daily to some extent (classes 3 times a week, sun salutations on my bedroom floor the rest of the time). I am trying to do a massage a month...it's hard financially but as Aimee said, we are supposed to keep our stress level down so.... ha! being able to dedicate more time and money to stress management (without feeling guilty about it) is TOTALLY an upside to having AA.

And Congrats on the regrowth Christie! The next tequila shot you take should be one of celebration.

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