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Why shaving your head is liberating
So your hair has started to fall out in patches and you`re trying to hid the evidence of your Alopecia. Its tiring, overwhelming, and just pain upsetting. All us have been there. So when your world is spinning out of control and you feel like you have no say in how your body functions what do you do?
In my life I have had my head shaved twice... once when I was 12 by my mother and once by my self when I was 19. When my hair first started to fall out in grade 6 I did everything to hide it... they even changed the no hat policy in my elementary school so I could wear hats to hide my spots. But sadly summer going into the 7th grade it was becoming too much to hide, or too little hair to fake, and it all had to come off. My wonderful mother said to me that it was time... time to buy a wig and stop with these hats. So one afternoon after purchasing my first wig we did it.... me and my mum sat in the bathroom and she took a buzzer to the remainder of my hair. I cried. I felt like I had finally been defeated by my disorder and that I would never be the same again. I was right on half of that. I would never be the same again, but I had not lost to my Alopecia.
The following September I was back to hiding... my hair had started to grow back and I would have hair for high school. That was a blessing I will never forget. But sadly following a bad relationship my hair started to fall out again and December 2005 I shaved my head again.... this time I looked forward to it all day! I had ordered a new wig, I had a hair appointment with a fantastic girl named Tara (who still cuts my wigs) and I was going to cut it all off! I stood in my parents bathroom with a pair of scissors and cut off what was left of my hair.... I have never felt more liberated in my whole life! I sat back and realized that I had finally won... yes I was bald, but i was beautiful, empowered, and most importantly I was happy.
When I was 11 I need my mum to be there to help me make the tough decisions (I still need her sometimes) but at 19 I knew i was finally strong enough to face it on my own.
If you are sitting at home trying to figure out how you are going to try and make the remaining 40% of your hair look natural realize that you don't have to fight your hair everyday.... make the appointment, take the leap, get excited about taking charge and buy a buzzer and have fun. I swear you'll feel lighter.
Love always.
In my life I have had my head shaved twice... once when I was 12 by my mother and once by my self when I was 19. When my hair first started to fall out in grade 6 I did everything to hide it... they even changed the no hat policy in my elementary school so I could wear hats to hide my spots. But sadly summer going into the 7th grade it was becoming too much to hide, or too little hair to fake, and it all had to come off. My wonderful mother said to me that it was time... time to buy a wig and stop with these hats. So one afternoon after purchasing my first wig we did it.... me and my mum sat in the bathroom and she took a buzzer to the remainder of my hair. I cried. I felt like I had finally been defeated by my disorder and that I would never be the same again. I was right on half of that. I would never be the same again, but I had not lost to my Alopecia.
The following September I was back to hiding... my hair had started to grow back and I would have hair for high school. That was a blessing I will never forget. But sadly following a bad relationship my hair started to fall out again and December 2005 I shaved my head again.... this time I looked forward to it all day! I had ordered a new wig, I had a hair appointment with a fantastic girl named Tara (who still cuts my wigs) and I was going to cut it all off! I stood in my parents bathroom with a pair of scissors and cut off what was left of my hair.... I have never felt more liberated in my whole life! I sat back and realized that I had finally won... yes I was bald, but i was beautiful, empowered, and most importantly I was happy.
When I was 11 I need my mum to be there to help me make the tough decisions (I still need her sometimes) but at 19 I knew i was finally strong enough to face it on my own.
If you are sitting at home trying to figure out how you are going to try and make the remaining 40% of your hair look natural realize that you don't have to fight your hair everyday.... make the appointment, take the leap, get excited about taking charge and buy a buzzer and have fun. I swear you'll feel lighter.
Love always.
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Comment by Tallgirl on July 7, 2011 at 12:10pm
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I think that sense of relief all depends on how one accepts her look...or her "potential"...with a bald dome. I knew I would be wearing a wig and wouldn't be showing anyone my head when I was a teen, so I just chopped off any hair, willy nilly, that stuck out beneath my wig. When the hair finally all grew in at 20, I went to a real beauty shop to have a pro create a Jane Fonda shag haircut out of all those uneven lengths...then went on to a fraternity/sorority mixer with cool top and hoop earrings. I danced like crazy that night, because MY acceptance of self at the time revolved upon all spots gone.
Now, at 58, after being on this site awhile, I was able to shave off the white wispy hair remaining after bouts of AU and AT in later life. I know I will still wear my wig in public unless I have my Bald Posse around me (or I am with the church friends who know and don't care, think I look great bald, etc.), but at least when I look in my mirror at home, I see a SYMMETRICAL head...and that satisfies my Libra self. This year, my newly-shaved head reminds me of a modern, 2011 look, a look sported by some women I consider brave, and a reminder of how the shave came to be (actually, a fun week). No one says I HAVE to wear that smooth head in public after I "lightened up." It can be for self, home, friends and lovers! When I go out to shop, teach, interview, etc...I will still wear my hot blond wig! I bought it, it's mine, too!
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