Hi everyone on AW!

It's been a few weeks. Christmas is over and work is in high gear. Lots of projects and no time to come on here and talk to everyone. I miss that and hope I can get on more.

Last time I posted I talked about wearing a wig to my work holiday party. I did not end up wearing one to that event, but since then I have been wearing them more frequently. Actually I should qualify that, wearing them around people who know me and know what I look like…

The holidays just won't stop! For me tonight is the final party for the year. Thank goodness.

And I am in a quandary. It's over my wigs. Is anyone on here surprised? I am sure I am the ONLY person to ponder their wig dilemma on Alopecia World. ha ha. Right.

Here's the deal. No one at work has seen me in my wigs yet. My hair is still passable enough to get away with it when I go to work. But let's face it, there is nothing by way of styling that I can do with it. It's too thin…

One of my friends on AW posted in his blog the question all of us ask at some point, and even many points, why me?

When I asked myself why me, I recalled years ago reading a book called On Death & Dying. This was a landmark book because of it's detailed analysis of the stages we all go through when experiencing grief. Unfortunately what most of us don't realize is that grief isn't just about death. Here are list of a few experiences that can cause grief:

loss of a…

Yup...

I never win anything. Never. Tuesday I won something - a hairdryer. Yes, you heard correctly. A hairdryer. Is that not the most crazy thing ever? "Hi my hair is falling out, can I have a hairdryer?" ROFL. My hairdresser had a giveaway over the holidays and she entered me in. Bless her heart. It's a professional dryer. Nice one. She uses this hairdryer herself at her salon. I can still use it for now but I had a good laugh when she gave it to me.

She has been such a…

I have only been diagnosed for oh 3 months now with AGA/TE, but one thing that I am finding a bit annoying is the sheer amount of hair loss shenanigans on the internet.

Try doing a search on YouTube for alopecia. I am looking for genuine people telling their stories. I personally find them helpful and inspiring. However what I mostly find are a lot of videos promoting a product or some dermatologist telling the usual treatment options for alopecia.

My favorite…

Everyone on here has those days when they wake up, wash their hair and think "hey, I think it's getting better!" And I for one, being the naturally anxious person that I am, starting getting a giddy, flippity-floppy feeling in my stomach.

This happened to me this morning. To be truthful...I suspect there is some improvement in my hair. And being that I don't know what exactly is going on, there might be for a bit. But I suspect that won't last forever. I sense genetics are against…

So. Yes, today no panic attack just that murky, obsessive thinking. Or as my new friend calls it the hamster wheel. To be honest, before I had hairloss, I had the hamster wheel. I have suffered from anxiety for a long time. I just didn't make a big effort to do anything about it. Now it is priority no. 1. In fact, yesterday I realized mental health was priorty no. 1. Hair would have to be no. 2.

How did I come to this conclusion?

Here is the logic I used.

Do I hate hair…

First let me say I am touched my blog was featured on here. That's never happened to me before. :-)I hope others will talk to me that know what I am going through and wish to just vent. I think it's so important to support each other.

So yes, day 3. I don't want to exaggerate. They are not full blown panic attacks. They are the wobbly legs, feeling hot, sickly stomach want to throw up kind. Full blown ones are much worse. I am using a book called the Anxiety and Phobia Workbook. It's…

I love the fact that there is a blog for me on this site. Although I know I may loose interest in it eventually since that's how I am.

Today is not a good day. It is the first bad one I have had in 3 weeks since my last panic attack. Up until that point I was having panic attacks every day for almost a month. I had a slight feeling of panic this morning. I am not sure what brought it on. Then I stupidly looked at my hair in the mirror while still a bit wet and unstyled and went into…