Okay, so most of you are familiar with my "alopecia story". The whole having AU since I was a youngster, getting my first Locks of Love hairpiece when I was in 4th grade, and now I'm trying to deal with alopecia in a positive way to keep myself from drowning in those terrible emotions that comes with having this disease. But I've never really spoken about my past experiences with cruel little children, and the typical harshness of having alopecia at such a young age. It was quite an…

Earlier today I was on Tumblr, looking for nothing in particular, and I ran into a quote. A quote that couldn't stop making me laugh! Usually when I read something on alopecia or hair loss, my first reaction isn't to laugh, but to frown. Anyway, the quote was: "I'm too sexy for my hair, that's why it isn't there"

Isn't that such a positive way of thinking? I want that quote on a shirt. I googled it, and I think it's supposed to be for older men who are experiencing hair loss. But I'm…

So I've had a conversation, and was asked why I don't take any treatment. And to be honest, I never really thought of having treatment of any kind. To put it simple, I just don't think it's necessary. I mean, I've had alopecia for so long, without any signs of it ever going away. Maybe I just don't want to get my hopes up to have it knocked down when the treatment doesn't work. I don't know. I'm happy where I am right now. Happy with how I'm dealing with it. And by taking treatment, it makes…

So my best friend Maria recently learned that I wore a hairpiece. Of course she already knew I had alopecia but she didn't know to what extent. Anyway, I told her and my other friend Yadira. We were at a park and it seemed like a good moment. Maria even felt the underside of my hairpiece to make sure, since she thought I was lying. They both took it extremely well to my surprise. They didn't ask too many questions but they didn't seem uncomfortable to ask simple ones. Like when I first got…

So, around last month, Locks Of Love called and invited my mother and I to the 5th annual Locks Of Love retreat held in West Palm Beach, Florida. My mother, of course, was thrilled, and said yes, we will be attending the retreat on June 27th. While my mom was excited, I was crawling with nerves. I was anxious to meet the other girls. But I'm glad I didn't back out because when my mother and I met at the Florida airport with the other moms and their daughters, all my nerves vanished. I met…

In my last blog post, Acceptance, I mentioned that I told my boyfriend that I have alopecia. Well, two weeks ago, we broke up. He was my first boyfriend that I've told about my alopecia. And for that reason, I withheld the part about wearing a hairpiece (he just knows about the loss of hair everywhere else, like eyebrows, eyelashes etc). I would of eventually told him if we continued dating but I'm glad I didn't tell him. Because two days ago, on twitter, he tweeted: "Lmfao if your a girl…

In the past few weeks, I've really changed. Changed in the sense that I'm not allowing myself to hide that I have alopecia anymore. I'm no longer considering it a 'secret'. I shouldn't be ashamed of it, because alopecia is apart of me, and I will not be ashamed of myself. It was difficult to talk about it before to my family, and even worse when I talked about it to my best friend. I would always end up crying. But recently, I told more of my friends, without a single tear, and they…

Hi. I haven't been on here in the longest. So today was the day I decided to check up on what I have been missing! :) I also thought I would update on my current hairpiece and my life. *takes deep breath* So, two weeks ago, I got my new Locks Of Love hairpiece and I'm in love. I posted the picture of my new hair piece as my thumbnail and in the photo thing. It's really long and the bangs are cut almost the same way as the old one. I was sad to give up my last one because I dyed the bangs a…

So, I first applied for Locks of Love towards the end of fourth grade. And it literally was the best decision I have ever made. It saved my life. Everyone was like, "Wow, nice hair Jackie." I mean, a few girls gave me snotty looks. It was probably because my hairpiece looks awesome and they were just jealous. That's how I like to look at it. lol c: Anyway, I love Locks of Love. They are the nicest people ever. Super sweet and down to earth. This month, I need to apply for a new one because…

So, like a few months ago, I went to a dermatalogist and the doctor lady was pretty cool. She told me like a summary about alopecia (which I already knew, but I didn't tell her otherwise), and she also said that there wasn't any magical cures yet. I really admired her for telling it like it is and not buttering it up. I liked that. What I really thought was awesome is that she prescribed me some lotion type thing. Like, I'm supposed to rub or massage some onto my head then like a rash type…

So I was spacing the other day, and I was really depressed. I was just thinking about my past, when I was younger, when I lost my hair, all the drama I've been through, etc. Then I came to think, "Why am I constantly always thinking about the past?" Well, the past never goes away, it's always in the back of our minds somewhere. Lurking, waiting, haunting, for a right moment to come forward and remind us the things we want to forget. It sucks sometimes. Then I thought, "There is no way to…