I want to start by saying that I dont regret shaving my head. I do believe it was necessary as part of my healing. But today I find myself wavering in my self-image. Wondering if I can ever let myself truly be. I spend so many years hiding and not letting people close. Especially men. I know that there is always going to be good days and bad for everyone not just for us that live with alopecia. And I know that our "battle" sometimes makes it that much more tougher. Im not looking for sympathy… Continue

Well its been a full week since the BIG Day. The day I shaved my head September 3. I must admit I never did feel the overwhelming sense of freedom that I heard about. The first couple of days I was still in shock but now I have a sense of comfort. I am comfortable wearing my wig, comfortable wearing scarfs and comfortable wearing nothing at all. Although I must admit I havent yet gone out in full public without something on my head yet. But I did sit getting my tatt done on the back of my neck… Continue

Well tonight I took the plunge and grab the clippers. After my mom and I went wig shopping and wearing it all day, I got home and took it off and looked in the mirror and decided enough is enough. I cant continue to see myself in a negative light. So when I went to the barn to do the night feed for the horses, I grabbed the clippers. I was shocked to see how much hair I actually have lost from the alopecia and it definitely brought to light how much I was hurting myself by trying desperately to… Continue