I have this clear mental image in my mind of a moment in my second grade classroom. Normally, my memory is pretty iffy. My memories don't play out like scenes from a movie; I can't remember details so specifically, but this one memory stands out in my mind quite well.



I was seven. My mom had just found a small bald spot on the right side of my head near the back. It was about the size of a dime, maybe a little bigger. I remember my parents telling me that it was normal, but it didn't… Continue

As I took off my wig last night and stared in the mirror, I realized that my hair has started to grow back a lot more thicker than I can remember in years. Not to say that it's a full head of hair, it's far from it--about maybe 5% of my original hair. For the most part, my hair usually grows back in two or three chunks from the top of my head before it falls out again, but the hair is actually staying in place this time.



I was washing my wig earlier and it occurred to me that I don't… Continue

What a coincidence that the other day as I was combing my new wig, I was wondering what would happen if the contestants on Shear Genius had to cut and style wigs for alopecia and cancer patients and voila! This past Wednesday night on Shear Genius, eight women with alopecia were on the show, spreading awareness and having wigs styled for the episode's challenge.



Good for you, Bravo, for using this fabulously addicting reality show (I've been a fan since season one!) to… Continue

(March 13, 2007)



Following the baptism of Jesus in Jordan, Jesus retreated to the desert. At his baptism, Jesus had heard the voice of God telling him, "You are my Beloved Son." This was all new and strange for Jesus who before had only known himself to be a carpenter from Nazareth. Jesus went into the desert to think about his identity, where he was also tempted by an evil voice that lay within him.



The first temptation was a temptation of power. The voice… Continue

(December 18, 2006)



Something interesting came to me in meditation on Wednesday. I won't use the 'W' word [weird], although it would be an accurate word to describe it.



I had been reflecting on the video of Pema Chodron we were watching in class. While watching this video, it was almost like this complete deja v experience--everything she spoke of seemed so real to me, and almost like I'd heard it before. It was as if the world around me disappeared when the video… Continue

(September 9, 2005)



The Bhagavad Gita is the account of Prince Arjuna's despair. He is told to fight and kill his relatives who stand on the opposing side even though he does not want to. He is angry about life and about what he is told he has to do. Arjuna is upset over the unfairness in life, so he lays down his weapons and starts to wail over the injustice presented before him. As much as he does not want to kill, he must. There is nothing he can do to change… Continue

"The warped utopia that the modeling industry presents is a false representation of the 'average beauty.' Too often, young girls are internalizing the looks we see in magazines as 'what is beautiful' and, as a result, are endangering their health and lowering self-esteem. Despite attempts to 'change the modeling industry' the truth stands that what we define as 'beautiful' are the extreme looks represented by supermodels. There is no objective point of view on beauty in America, yet there… Continue

UPS delivered my temporary wig yesterday. Yay! At first when I put it on I wasn't sure if I liked it. The last time I had a short-hair wig was when I was in junior high and the beginning of freshman year in high school. But I do like it! It's easier to maintain and it dries faster after I wash it. Plus if the wind picks up, it doesn't blow all over my face as much.





I think when I go back to Miss Peggy in September I will have my hair similar to this… Continue

So I've finally decided to update and add to my profile here at Alopecia World. Time has been so scarce for me lately - I'm a master at procrastination despite the two jobs I'm working and summer school. Moving back down to Irvine the past couple of weeks has taken a toll on me too. Who knew college would become increasingly more stressful as time moves forward?



The week before I moved I went out to SF to see Miss Peggy again to order a new wig. Time for a change, and not to mention… Continue