Been going through a lot of emotions lately, with myself and the others around me. Comin' up on 7 years in the fall. Man, I hate saying that. Just so tired of saying that, tired of myself and the efforts I feel like I must put forth just to feel pretty, natural and comfortable with myself around other people. I've been so tired of my hair, my locks of love wig piece. I've seriously had the same hair style for my entire high school career. Feeling so deprived and degraded a bit. I just don't…

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I haven't attempted at a new relationship since my last. 

And I'm scared to try.

Should I tell you later?

Say I do open up and get to know you, but the constant thought of my secret is on the tip of every word I've said.

I don't want to reveal my secret just to have you run the other way.

But if you run then that lets me know it wasn't meant to be, right?

No?

Yes?

Should I tell you sooner?

Well I've asked that question to a ex bf…

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I've been trying to handle my hair loss, taking the bull by the horns so to speak. Telling my self "I can handle this", "I'm going to be fine" (fine as in all right not as in it's going to grow back). Pragmatic, realistic, positive. It's very typical me.

But I'm fed up, tired, like i got the wind knocked out of me. I'm not fine, I'm sad.

It's been a year since I lost my hair and I feel like my life hit a wall. Someone pressed the pause button that day, and I can't find play. I…

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So I finally met the new doc!

yes it's DAY 62...that's how long it took because the previous doc kept cancelling my appointments!

As you can imagine, lots can change in 62 days!

It's actually a bit strange...bitter-sweet almost.

The spot grew a little bit but I also see more fuzz. The entire area is covered with decent length fuzz. The size probably ranges from 0.2cm to 0.5cm. The edge of the patch grew first and has now turned into black fuzz to match my original…

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Hello everyone. I just found and joined this site last night. First, I wanted to say that I am grateful this site exists. I stumbled upon it when I was looking for information on how to exercise in a wig. It looks like an amazing community and I look forward to getting to know everyone.

Second, a little about me. I am in my mid-30s and was diagnosed last year with scarring alopecia. When that diagnosis came in April, it was like my whole life felt shattered. I had been worried about…

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I don't really know what all I want to say. I just hope I articulate myself well enough. Lately I feel like I say all sorts of things, but its all jumbled up in my head. It makes sense to me when I say it, but not necessarily to others around me who hear it.



I only have one other blog post on here and its about my fingernails. I tried biotin for a few months and I didn't see a change so I stopped it. I actually had one thumbnail reverse itself on its own, but within 2 months it was… Continue

Well, what can I say... after all this time has past!

It has been over a year now since I lost all my hair.

Everything was going great, so I thought!

Damn! I don't deal with stress as well as I used too.

I lost my hair in October, a year has now past...

My hair grew all back, oh what joy it brought to my…

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Is this feeling of loss and sadness ever going to go away?



90% of the time I feel completely accepting and fine with having female pattern baldness. In fact, I was beginning to feel pretty damn good about myself and the situation, regardless of the fact that I'll be chopping my hair off shortly and am still losing clumps every night. But then today one of my friends sent me a picture of me three years ago - back when I had my full head of hair and was in all my glory - and an immense… Continue

Its hard to talk when you have a big lump in your throat;

feels like I can't stop choking...



This pain, it hurts so much! I am trying so hard to let go...



I am trying my best to understand!



I am! I AM!! trying to understand WHY ME????



How can I make other people understand,

when I don't understand myself...



I am tired of being in the dark, hiding... feeling ashamed

tired of crying...

feeling so alone!



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I'm tired of this. I'm sick and tired of having my optimism and hope driven into the dirt by my mother. Every time I talk to her on the phone, I end up in tears. I resent her for making me feel insecure about something that I have no control over. She makes me feel like I'm not doing enough when in reality I've done so much. I feel that if I try one more procedure or method and bring her (and myself) false hopes that it'll just be wasted money and it will wear me out even more. I am still a… Continue