Washing what I have left of my natural hair I noticed a toony size bald spot right by my temple area.I stared at it for a few seconds,then continued styling what I had over it and noticed I wasn't covering it well, took yet another look, stared at it, and said out loud," that's it, its time to go". These patches keep apearing and i'm getting sick of trying to hide it. SHAVE SHAVE SHAVE here I come!! I feel good at the moment that its all coming off tonight but i'm not sure how I will feel once… Continue

iT'S been quite a rough past week, probably worst week i've had in a while, and its all over my damn hair! (pardon my french :)

I found myself awaken around 3 a.m everyday for the past week, only to think about my hair, will it ever grow back?, what did I do to deserve it?,how much worst is it gonna get?, all this over tears, well at least no one seen me .

I woke up this morning did my normal things around the house and decided to enjoy the fresh air out in my yard.

As i'm… Continue

Just an update from my blog I posted Friday about mixed emotions!

Saturday I was very nervous getting to the shopping center, but once I stepped in there, it wasn't about me,it was about my daughter and her grad dress,,instead of being scared of my hair, I found myself hiding back my tears seeing my daughter in the grad dress we bought her.

I got through my Saturday and my Sunday with my beautiful family whom I love dearly .

It was a happy week-end for me one I haven't had in a… Continue

I know I post quite a few blogs but this one touched my heart.

My daughter came downstairs as I was watching tv and says to me, Mom could you please flat iron my hair?,I told her please dont ruin your beautiful curls they are gorgeous, she begged me. Needless to say after trying to convince her NOT to iron her hair out I did it for her.

She went upstairs to her room and about 20 minutes later she came back downstairs and said,Look at me now, I'm almost as beautiful as you mom!! What… Continue

Tomorrow My husband,my oldest daughter and myself are going to buy her grade 8 grad dress. This is going ot be my first time going shopping since i've started losing my hair.Yes it's covered however i'm sure most of you know what I mean, it's still not the same, its NOT mine!!

I'm looking forward to being with my husband to do this but at the same time i'm NOT ,all those gorgeous girls be around shopping and brings me to think,my husband could have alot better than me.This morning I… Continue

Trying to avoid my friends since I started losing my hair, was the hardest thing to do, but I did it!

I was afraid of what they would think of me or if they would say anything I wouldn't want to hear.

I decided yesterday afternoon that I miss my friends, I miss my morning meetings with them, so I thought OK THAT'S IT!! I met with them yesterday evening while all our kids played together,we had a nice talk about what I was going through and the greatest thing I heard from them was ,"… Continue

I have no one left in my family except for my sister.

So what better person to share my pain about my alopecia right?

I shared my pain with her, she offered her support in which I thought was wonderful, until I decide to check out my facebook page and here were photos of her bragging about her long up to the butt hair, many photos of wind blowing the hair,hair up, hair down you name it , it was there.

I felt very hurt, I could MAYBE take it better from a stranger but my… Continue

Sitting outside yesterday evening watching my children play with their friends, my mind starts to wander and I find myself full of 'What if's".

, Scared of one of my IF"S I decided to just come out and ask my husband,"What IF I turn bald within time, how will you feel towards me? I almost lost my finger when i asked that,I thought he'd either change the topic or just avoid to answer me all together.

instead I got a hug and he said," in sickness and in health." He went on to explain… Continue

I got up this morning to the usual routine,coffee,getting kids off to school, went upstairs and showered, fixed up my extensions I have added in to hide my many spots.

Things were good, I had to take my son to the dr's this morning, and as I was waiting my turn in line ,a pretty girl walks by with her long hair waving everywhere and all of a sudden I found myself fighting to keep the tears back so no one would see ,especially my son.

I stand there thinking to myself , God please tell… Continue