Turn on the light.

Turn off the light.

You have control.

Make my sky

fade into yellow

then into black.

Make my smile

invisible like the air.

You have control.

Yes, killer you

have control.

You control my feelings.

My smiles.

My laughs.

My everything.

I want to be strong.

Strong as a hammer.

Shut you out but...

One day you'll lose control

and my feelings won't be

a game anymore.

One day I…

I love the feeling of being bald, and being free to be different. Kids in my high school still stare but are getting use to my change. I like that attention, im alittle nobody so its alittle bit nice.
But I see girls doing a lot of things with their hair, stuff i never could do before, or can't do now (obbiously). I get so jealous.
This whole i shaved my head but im also losing it deal has its ups and downs. I'm having mixed feelings. :/ oooh boy..

First let me say I am touched my blog was featured on here. That's never happened to me before. :-)I hope others will talk to me that know what I am going through and wish to just vent. I think it's so important to support each other.

So yes, day 3. I don't want to exaggerate. They are not full blown panic attacks. They are the wobbly legs, feeling hot, sickly stomach want to throw up kind. Full blown ones are much worse. I am using a book called the Anxiety and Phobia Workbook. It's…

Velvet Cooke is the best member on this site in m opinion wisdom beyond her years used sparingly with us oldies so as not to confuse us and her teenage site was inspirational and is one of the most active groups on here. Respect V

My family isn't helping that much. and my grades are dropping and they keep yelling at me! it just makes me feel more worst!

My mom is not healthy and just lays on the couch all day, while my day hides at work. My mom owns 4 cats and loves them more then me. My dad just keeps yelling at me and telling me how bad i am.

I am the youngest out of three girls, both my sisters did drugs had sex and drank.

I'm still a virgin i never used drugs to make me feel happy and i never party…

I love the fact that there is a blog for me on this site. Although I know I may loose interest in it eventually since that's how I am.

Today is not a good day. It is the first bad one I have had in 3 weeks since my last panic attack. Up until that point I was having panic attacks every day for almost a month. I had a slight feeling of panic this morning. I am not sure what brought it on. Then I stupidly looked at my hair in the mirror while still a bit wet and unstyled and went into…

Hello,

My 4 yr old grand daughter w/alopecia areata wants an American Girl Doll that looks like her. We've contacted the manufacturer who claims it's impossible to make/ ship a doll without hair. I am shocked at the insensitivity, and am only interested in how to help my grand daughter's Christmas wish come true. Any help would be appreciated.

Thanks

Toni…

Hey AW Friends,

It's been awhile since I've really posted anything about life but today feels like the perfect day to share with all of you. Three and a half years ago I began my journey through night school and weekends to become a Speech Language Pathologist. It's also when I began my journey with my second round of alopecia.

Today I graduate and have found myself I looking back on all of the things I was able to accomplish. It's not easy working full time as a teacher and…

I suffer from AA.

I've had it for almost the past 9 years of my life.

It's been hard, but I've always managed to handle it.

Well, most of the time.

Like with everything in life, me and AA have our ups and downs.

2 years ago, i started going up again. My patches (a total of 4 at the time) were regrowing and slowly disappearing. It got to the point where i was able to stop getting my regular 6-weeks shots and using my cream.

To be honest, i got cocky. I…

Alopecia is getting exposure up here in the Great White North! (Just had fluffy white snow...it looks beautiful!) Check out the following link to see the Marilyn Dennis Show and our lovely Alopecia model!…

Today was the day i decided to shave my head. It's also the day my boyfriend broke up with me.. not for that reason, but it still matters, i dont know if my alopecia has anything to do with why he broke up with me or not but its all the same. everything just feels hopeless

I asked the question why me Lord?
This Alopecia has caused me to fall and have no reason to live!!!! My hair is growing and falling out! I have been to several doctors and so many treatments. I'm so tried of people looking at me and having to pay money for hair that sometimes does not look rt! It's not a good feeling at all!!!! I hate the way I look now and finding it hard everyday do look myself in the face or even leave the house!!!!

My husband has been working on material for a class on character that he is teaching at a prison. He found himself researching Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn, who spent 8 years in an unfathomable labor camp for writing a derogatory comment about their country's leader in a letter to a friend. Solzhenitsyn later went on to write the classic book - The Gulag Archipelago: 1918-1956 -…

I feel as if I've reached the beginning of a sense of freedom. When I talk of freedom I mean freedom from self, inner relief, freedom from restrictions.

I don't want to get into this sad tragedy of my hair loss at 13. It happened, I struggled, I got bullied, and I went through a long stage of hiding behind wigs and generally hatting myself.

I wanted to say, however, for all those loosing their hair right now, it doesn't have to be that way. When I was 13 growing up in a smaller…

Recently I read a commencement speech given by the late Steve Jobs to the 2005 Stanford University graduating class. In that speech he expounded on how our lives are like dots and as you look back you can connect the dots as to what brought you to the place where you are now. According to Jobs, "You can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future."

You see, there is complete…

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I noticed today a new self- talk pattern that puts in question my self- worth. I have said this inside:"What if retail security followed me because if my mohawk? What if my hairloss did not happen; would she have put me down so often? What if my baldness angered him to rape me?"

I AM VERY HAPPY THAT THERE ARE PEOPLE THAT I CAN IDENTIFY WITH. I HAVE HAD TRACTION ALOPECIA ABOUT 20 YEARS. I REALLY CAN'T REMEMBER WHEN IT STARTED. I HAVE 2 BALD SPOTS ON BOTH SIDES ON THE FRONT OF MY HEAD. I HAVE WORN WIGS,WEAVES,SCARFS AND VARIOUS SPRAYS TO COVER THEM UP. I BECAME VERY DEPRESSED AND DID NOT WANT TO GO OUT MUCH BECAUSE I ALWAYS HAD TO WEAR THE SAME HAIRSTYLE. I COULD NEVER WEAR MY HAIR BACK LIKE I WANTED TO.I ALWAYS HAD TO DO A COMB OVER. MY HUSBAND HAS A HEAD FULL OF…

Hello - I am learning to live with permanent hair loss from a breast cancer treatment drug, taxotere. I started a topic on breastcancer.org and have made friends with women around the world considering treatment with taxotere, or having already been treated with tacotere. Many of us are learning to live this new life of 'no/very little' hair and 'no eyebrows'.

Joining this group is 'my acceptance' of my hair is not coming back. I need to learn the best way to mimic eyebrows and wig…

It's been almost 1 year since my hair started falling out, almost 10 months since I found my first stop and was diagnosed with Alopecia, and 6 months since I had my last shots on the spots. Since then my hair has been thinning but not as bad and its not really that noticeable. All my spots are now growing new hair, some longer than others. I'm just so happy that its coming back, its been a slow process but at least there's progress :) Just wanted to share my exciting progress with yall.