Well everyone, I am sorry it has been so long. I hope you are all doing great. I am doing rather well myself, I am getting married, thats right! I am so glad to tell you all that I have met the man of my dreams and we're gettin hitched this New Years Eve, on the beach in Florida!!

But, surprise surprise not all is well. After a year and a half of thick hair and no worries, ta da! I was at a movie a couple weeks ago and noticed a spot on my head, not a big one, but it was there. I…

Just curious...what, in your opinion, was the cause of the beginning of your hair loss?

For me...I was under a tremendous amount of stress. One thing came after the other for a number of years (including a strenuous marriage and owning a hair salon/spa...a whole other story). Towards the end, things became quietly unbearable for me...from getting a divorce to buying a house and moving into the house on the same weekend as switching jobs.

I met my boyfriend…

Turn on the light.

Turn off the light.

You have control.

Make my sky

fade into yellow

then into black.

Make my smile

invisible like the air.

You have control.

Yes, killer you

have control.

You control my feelings.

My smiles.

My laughs.

My everything.

I want to be strong.

Strong as a hammer.

Shut you out but...

One day you'll lose control

and my feelings won't be

a game anymore.

One day I…

I love the feeling of being bald, and being free to be different. Kids in my high school still stare but are getting use to my change. I like that attention, im alittle nobody so its alittle bit nice.
But I see girls doing a lot of things with their hair, stuff i never could do before, or can't do now (obbiously). I get so jealous.
This whole i shaved my head but im also losing it deal has its ups and downs. I'm having mixed feelings. :/ oooh boy..

First let me say I am touched my blog was featured on here. That's never happened to me before. :-)I hope others will talk to me that know what I am going through and wish to just vent. I think it's so important to support each other.

So yes, day 3. I don't want to exaggerate. They are not full blown panic attacks. They are the wobbly legs, feeling hot, sickly stomach want to throw up kind. Full blown ones are much worse. I am using a book called the Anxiety and Phobia Workbook. It's…

My family isn't helping that much. and my grades are dropping and they keep yelling at me! it just makes me feel more worst!

My mom is not healthy and just lays on the couch all day, while my day hides at work. My mom owns 4 cats and loves them more then me. My dad just keeps yelling at me and telling me how bad i am.

I am the youngest out of three girls, both my sisters did drugs had sex and drank.

I'm still a virgin i never used drugs to make me feel happy and i never party…

I love the fact that there is a blog for me on this site. Although I know I may loose interest in it eventually since that's how I am.

Today is not a good day. It is the first bad one I have had in 3 weeks since my last panic attack. Up until that point I was having panic attacks every day for almost a month. I had a slight feeling of panic this morning. I am not sure what brought it on. Then I stupidly looked at my hair in the mirror while still a bit wet and unstyled and went into…

Hello,

My 4 yr old grand daughter w/alopecia areata wants an American Girl Doll that looks like her. We've contacted the manufacturer who claims it's impossible to make/ ship a doll without hair. I am shocked at the insensitivity, and am only interested in how to help my grand daughter's Christmas wish come true. Any help would be appreciated.

Thanks

Toni…

Hey AW Friends,

It's been awhile since I've really posted anything about life but today feels like the perfect day to share with all of you. Three and a half years ago I began my journey through night school and weekends to become a Speech Language Pathologist. It's also when I began my journey with my second round of alopecia.

Today I graduate and have found myself I looking back on all of the things I was able to accomplish. It's not easy working full time as a teacher and…

I suffer from AA.

I've had it for almost the past 9 years of my life.

It's been hard, but I've always managed to handle it.

Well, most of the time.

Like with everything in life, me and AA have our ups and downs.

2 years ago, i started going up again. My patches (a total of 4 at the time) were regrowing and slowly disappearing. It got to the point where i was able to stop getting my regular 6-weeks shots and using my cream.

To be honest, i got cocky. I…

I asked the question why me Lord?
This Alopecia has caused me to fall and have no reason to live!!!! My hair is growing and falling out! I have been to several doctors and so many treatments. I'm so tried of people looking at me and having to pay money for hair that sometimes does not look rt! It's not a good feeling at all!!!! I hate the way I look now and finding it hard everyday do look myself in the face or even leave the house!!!!

My husband has been working on material for a class on character that he is teaching at a prison. He found himself researching Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn, who spent 8 years in an unfathomable labor camp for writing a derogatory comment about their country's leader in a letter to a friend. Solzhenitsyn later went on to write the classic book - The Gulag Archipelago: 1918-1956 -…

I feel as if I've reached the beginning of a sense of freedom. When I talk of freedom I mean freedom from self, inner relief, freedom from restrictions.

I don't want to get into this sad tragedy of my hair loss at 13. It happened, I struggled, I got bullied, and I went through a long stage of hiding behind wigs and generally hatting myself.

I wanted to say, however, for all those loosing their hair right now, it doesn't have to be that way. When I was 13 growing up in a smaller…

I noticed today a new self- talk pattern that puts in question my self- worth. I have said this inside:"What if retail security followed me because if my mohawk? What if my hairloss did not happen; would she have put me down so often? What if my baldness angered him to rape me?"

It's been almost 1 year since my hair started falling out, almost 10 months since I found my first stop and was diagnosed with Alopecia, and 6 months since I had my last shots on the spots. Since then my hair has been thinning but not as bad and its not really that noticeable. All my spots are now growing new hair, some longer than others. I'm just so happy that its coming back, its been a slow process but at least there's progress :) Just wanted to share my exciting progress with yall.

Today in church, the speaker discussed kids who have dreams of negative actions on themselves, but who time and again were just found to be having such dreams when faced with a fear or developmental stage they didn't think they could overcome. Being me, of course, I took notes as how this might manifest itself with distraught people on AW. Here is what I came up with as he talked:

What a person really wants to escape is the emotional pain, fear, assumptions or embarrassment associated…

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(There is also a permanent and easily accessible link to this report form under the "Members" tab on the navigation menu that appears on every page of Alopecia World.)

Anytime you report an issue, be sure to include details such as supporting evidence of…

While I am a musician (Singer/Songwriter), I don't exist off the air I breathe. It would be nice. When I was signed to a label in the mid-90s I toured, made very good money. Long story short, my contract with my label was not renewed. It meant "start over". Back to a day job. I burned the candle at both ends, working to support myself, pursuing my musical endeavors, writing performing.

Like millions of other Americans I was laid off in 2008. I work as a temp whenever afforded the…

So, it seems like there's this huge stigma with a lot of us who have it... we feel less feminine and I feel like I'm aging prematurely (no wrinkles yet though!). I think that's what really freaks me out about it and makes me feel terrible about myself... when this first started happening to me, I felt like my body was falling apart and there was something wrong with me. I've read a lot of discussions on this site and there were some people with AA angry that more research isn't being done…

Most of you know that I am from Canada and rj is American. So when we married we started a whirlwind of immigration processes. I had to file yet another form and get another set of biometric done. One of the steps was another photo session at the immigration office.

I filled out the form and clicked “bald” as my hair color. For a second I wondered if I should have clicked black, since it was an official government form and being AA my black hair does show if I don't shave daily. I…